never call me baby, oh lord. just call me by my name.
ev, this one's for you love. :)
i really needed to update anyway. now's a time when i could really use bloop, for real. i miss all of my faves. not to mention the shit that's went down here in these past couple of days.
i suppose i can start with saturday, since that's a happy note.
haha. i'll write this out like a story-kinda boring happy note, climax and sad stuff, happy ending. lmao. anyways....on with the update.
so saturday-of course i was working all day long. i got off, and just chilled at the house for a little while. then i hung out with hope, chris, cindy, and adam for a while that night. we just watched a ufc fight, so it wasn't anything exciting, but it was fun nonetheless. oh, i also got to see my niece again, and my brother got to meet his baby for the very first time.
sunday, i worked all day again. came home, intending to take a nap, but ended up on the phone all day-with kristy, jason, and staci-don't get me wrong, i was stoked to talk to staci, since i don't really talk to her all that much. after i finally hung up the phone, i watched the last episode of trl, then went to bed.
monday, i got up and took jessie's dad rick and his wife to the motel in prattville-ended up being late for work, spilling coffee all over myself, and just ending up in a terrible mood for the morning. well, around two or so in the afternoon, the phone rings. i run to answer it-irritated that no one else seems to be able to hear the thing ring.
here's how the conversation went:
mandie: thank you for calling tractor supply, this is mandie. what are you looking for today?
aunt patty: can you leave work?
mandie: why, what's wrong?
aunt patty: we need to go to birmingham.
mandie: WHAT HAPPENED?
aunt patty: we've got to go to the burn unit. grandma just set herself on fire, and she's being flown there now.
mandie: hang on, let me go tell chip.
**puts her on hold and runs to my manager**
mandie: chip, i need to leave my grandmother just set herself on fire, and we have to go to birmingham right now.
chip: ok. is she alright?
mandie: i dont know. i dont think so, they wouldnt have called me if she was. i'll page kristy up.
chip: don't worry about it, i got it. just keep us updated.
i pick up the phone, tell my aunt i'm on my way, and fly home.
once everyone got home [we were all at work. rick and his wife had walked back to my dad's house, which is where they are staying for now, and they were the one's who heard the flames woosh up and tried to get her out of the fire. thank god for them.] we all got in the car and flew to birmingham.
to make a long story short, we waited in the burn icu for about two hours when the doctor called us and took us to the conference room. he told us the extent of her burns, that she had an aneurism in her heart, and that they were cleaning her up now. he explained to us the situation-at my grandmother's age with her health problems, the likelihood of her surviving this was very very small. she burned over 25% of her body, her face was pretty much destroyed, if she were to make it, she would lose her left arm up to the elbow, the use of her right arm, she already lost her breasts, and she probably wouldn't be able to open her eyes anyway. they asked us if they should do everything they could or just make her as comfortable as possible. my uncle was the one who had to make the choice, and knowing my grandmother, he decided to just make her as comfortable as possible.
our family lost it for a little while. but we eventually composed ourselves. we got to see her one last time. then we went home.
of course there's a whole lot more to it than all that, but i just don't feel like getting completely into it. my grandmother ended up passing tuesday night.
last night i came to troy, and of course jordan and i got drunk and had fun. later, after she had passed out, i truly lost it. i thought i was fine, but i went downstairs to smoke, and i called staci, and i just lost it. i can't even explain it. i'm fine now. i think i just needed to get all that out-i'm not an emotional person at all...im actually pretty much emotionally retarded...so i'm really bad at expressing anything but anger or happiness. my family is not emotional at all, so to see them all lose it as well, all at once, it was a bit overwhelming. and when it comes to my emotional issues, i do better with my friends than my family. it's hard to explain. i also just listen to music, constantly.
so anyway, tonight, here in just a few short hours, jordan and i are headed to montgomery to the twilight premiere. i'm totally stoked.
but i've got to finish getting ready, so i'm off.
love you guys.
i really needed to update anyway. now's a time when i could really use bloop, for real. i miss all of my faves. not to mention the shit that's went down here in these past couple of days.
i suppose i can start with saturday, since that's a happy note.
haha. i'll write this out like a story-kinda boring happy note, climax and sad stuff, happy ending. lmao. anyways....on with the update.
so saturday-of course i was working all day long. i got off, and just chilled at the house for a little while. then i hung out with hope, chris, cindy, and adam for a while that night. we just watched a ufc fight, so it wasn't anything exciting, but it was fun nonetheless. oh, i also got to see my niece again, and my brother got to meet his baby for the very first time.
sunday, i worked all day again. came home, intending to take a nap, but ended up on the phone all day-with kristy, jason, and staci-don't get me wrong, i was stoked to talk to staci, since i don't really talk to her all that much. after i finally hung up the phone, i watched the last episode of trl, then went to bed.
monday, i got up and took jessie's dad rick and his wife to the motel in prattville-ended up being late for work, spilling coffee all over myself, and just ending up in a terrible mood for the morning. well, around two or so in the afternoon, the phone rings. i run to answer it-irritated that no one else seems to be able to hear the thing ring.
here's how the conversation went:
mandie: thank you for calling tractor supply, this is mandie. what are you looking for today?
aunt patty: can you leave work?
mandie: why, what's wrong?
aunt patty: we need to go to birmingham.
mandie: WHAT HAPPENED?
aunt patty: we've got to go to the burn unit. grandma just set herself on fire, and she's being flown there now.
mandie: hang on, let me go tell chip.
**puts her on hold and runs to my manager**
mandie: chip, i need to leave my grandmother just set herself on fire, and we have to go to birmingham right now.
chip: ok. is she alright?
mandie: i dont know. i dont think so, they wouldnt have called me if she was. i'll page kristy up.
chip: don't worry about it, i got it. just keep us updated.
i pick up the phone, tell my aunt i'm on my way, and fly home.
once everyone got home [we were all at work. rick and his wife had walked back to my dad's house, which is where they are staying for now, and they were the one's who heard the flames woosh up and tried to get her out of the fire. thank god for them.] we all got in the car and flew to birmingham.
to make a long story short, we waited in the burn icu for about two hours when the doctor called us and took us to the conference room. he told us the extent of her burns, that she had an aneurism in her heart, and that they were cleaning her up now. he explained to us the situation-at my grandmother's age with her health problems, the likelihood of her surviving this was very very small. she burned over 25% of her body, her face was pretty much destroyed, if she were to make it, she would lose her left arm up to the elbow, the use of her right arm, she already lost her breasts, and she probably wouldn't be able to open her eyes anyway. they asked us if they should do everything they could or just make her as comfortable as possible. my uncle was the one who had to make the choice, and knowing my grandmother, he decided to just make her as comfortable as possible.
our family lost it for a little while. but we eventually composed ourselves. we got to see her one last time. then we went home.
of course there's a whole lot more to it than all that, but i just don't feel like getting completely into it. my grandmother ended up passing tuesday night.
last night i came to troy, and of course jordan and i got drunk and had fun. later, after she had passed out, i truly lost it. i thought i was fine, but i went downstairs to smoke, and i called staci, and i just lost it. i can't even explain it. i'm fine now. i think i just needed to get all that out-i'm not an emotional person at all...im actually pretty much emotionally retarded...so i'm really bad at expressing anything but anger or happiness. my family is not emotional at all, so to see them all lose it as well, all at once, it was a bit overwhelming. and when it comes to my emotional issues, i do better with my friends than my family. it's hard to explain. i also just listen to music, constantly.
so anyway, tonight, here in just a few short hours, jordan and i are headed to montgomery to the twilight premiere. i'm totally stoked.
but i've got to finish getting ready, so i'm off.
love you guys.