feeling sorry for my self

[manishaeve]

why can't i EVER get a good part in a play. so many try outs so much rejection.... it happens? not every time. carrie shot in there and got a middle level part and a lead in the musical, but she's perfect and i am not. my life's story, i can't even be happy for my BEST friend. what kind of person does that make me? a horrid one, i know. but here is the thing... everyone has that one person they compete with in life. carrie is mine... i ALWAYS lose, as i am sure everyone is well, WELL aware of. my parents even used to use her as an example when i was in trouble. "carrie would never do that." i have never even dated a guy that didn't like carrie at least once. and today i am STILL LOSING. she sings, acts, and lives better than me. she is awsome and a good friend. i really do suck at life. i can't even get a part in a play that is of any consequence to the plot. i could never come and the play would be great, probably better.
sighs
and also i am over dramatic
my confessions of woe
-mk