Cant You Hear Me Darlin
its funny.
today i was thinkin back on life, and i had a smashing pumpkins song stuck in my head. i almost used a lyric that i know ive used before as a title of this post.
blessed and cursed and won
things have changed alot. i wear an orange rubber band doubled around my left wrist. supposedly it signifies the search for truth. i suppose i am. my hair grew out, then i cut it again. in the past month it has been the longest and now shortest it has ever been in my life. i lost my car in a flood about a week ago. second most depressing day of my life. most people laugh and say "well lolz man its just a car". unfortunatly i dont feel the same.
ill see her tommorrow when she goes under the knife.
i was kicked out of school. bad grades is what they tell me, but everyone knows better. ill be back in the spring though. im not givin in that easy. ive been writing alot of music lately and most of it sucks. we'll see where it takes me. my freind Javier opened for chris fotier at eleven50 last month. thats DJ stuff...edm and all that jazz. they say i should try it out. a song is currently underway, but being as im still learning the software it will be a remix. im ok with that, at least it will help me learn.
i have decided that i drink entirely too much. granted, im not on the level of some alchoholics, but i seem to have aquired the problem of 'when you drink, drink as much as you can'. my kidneys definatly feel it and im pretty sure my brain is toast.
i have a new goal in life. burning man 2k7. i want to go, but im still trying to decide what to do. seeing how it is an open community and everyone brings something to the table. i had designed a new car that was powered by alot of things, but mostly kinetic energy from a pendulum. ive run into a few problems with it, and ive solved almost all of them. on paper, anyways. will i ever build it?
i was hoping to have some time off this semester to travel around and work on projects. hasnt worked out. my first 2 weeks out of school i worked 97 hours. ive tried to cut back this week, but with all this new shit i have to do its not working out.
i found out del the funky homosapien was related to ice cube. i thought that was neat, and also odd because del is against gangsta rap. but i guess it doesnt matter.
i bought a gallon of ice cream today from brusters. that was just about stupid, but i told cajy she woulda been proud. shes always trying to get me to buy icecream.
i didnt eat any. you guys know why.
i bought the never ending story I and II the other day. today i got the wizard. oh and charlie and the chocolate factory. i guess im takin it back. whatever that means.
cleaks II was funny. 75% of my friends disagree. it doesnt really matter.
black dave is a cop now at georgia tech. its cool, but sometimes it goes to his head. at least he has jarred to balance him out. jarred has gone completely anarchist. cant blame him, but i also cant say hes any worse off than the rest of us.
i guess thats why i wear the rubber band. searching for truth he says. but i say 'what happens when you find the truth'? do you say A-HA! I KNEW IT! i hardly think it would matter. in my field, its not controlling the masses, its changing opinions. why not change them back i say? because then youre no better. so then we are a people who know the truth but keep on doing what we do anyway. our opinions havnt really changed, our hearts and faith are still on the shelf getting webby.
paradox then? mind control? i liken it to this analogy:
ever wanted to get a group of people together to play a game? and then you did? and maybe you played for like 5 minutes and everyone just kinda quit playin and started doin other things? you insisted they play buy noone even payed attention? at this point i think the government could do whatever they wanted. sure, people would get mad. but would they act? i think they are too preoccupied with something more interesting. and at the same time the government has lost its control of its people. of course this all sounds better in my head right now, and im sure if i actually thought about it i would find a million holes.
and i just got a text from sara. i think shes a little lost herself. i guess thats her problem. at least shes still in school.
now it seems that there are no easy answers to the same ol questions ive been posed - lynn strait
i wish i still had my snot cd. i may go buy it again, since i dunno...its pretty fuckin badass. i think some of my friends are gonna get mad at me for writin so much and not using the compressed link dealy. but i dont know how to use that so get over it. i heard jessie (sic) was tryin to get a job down the street in little 5. id probably never go see her, but theres always the off chance ill run into her at target and ill say HEY! and shell say FUCK YOU CHILD MOLESTER! or something equally obnoxious.
i think thats about it.
today i was thinkin back on life, and i had a smashing pumpkins song stuck in my head. i almost used a lyric that i know ive used before as a title of this post.
blessed and cursed and won
things have changed alot. i wear an orange rubber band doubled around my left wrist. supposedly it signifies the search for truth. i suppose i am. my hair grew out, then i cut it again. in the past month it has been the longest and now shortest it has ever been in my life. i lost my car in a flood about a week ago. second most depressing day of my life. most people laugh and say "well lolz man its just a car". unfortunatly i dont feel the same.
ill see her tommorrow when she goes under the knife.
i was kicked out of school. bad grades is what they tell me, but everyone knows better. ill be back in the spring though. im not givin in that easy. ive been writing alot of music lately and most of it sucks. we'll see where it takes me. my freind Javier opened for chris fotier at eleven50 last month. thats DJ stuff...edm and all that jazz. they say i should try it out. a song is currently underway, but being as im still learning the software it will be a remix. im ok with that, at least it will help me learn.
i have decided that i drink entirely too much. granted, im not on the level of some alchoholics, but i seem to have aquired the problem of 'when you drink, drink as much as you can'. my kidneys definatly feel it and im pretty sure my brain is toast.
i have a new goal in life. burning man 2k7. i want to go, but im still trying to decide what to do. seeing how it is an open community and everyone brings something to the table. i had designed a new car that was powered by alot of things, but mostly kinetic energy from a pendulum. ive run into a few problems with it, and ive solved almost all of them. on paper, anyways. will i ever build it?
i was hoping to have some time off this semester to travel around and work on projects. hasnt worked out. my first 2 weeks out of school i worked 97 hours. ive tried to cut back this week, but with all this new shit i have to do its not working out.
i found out del the funky homosapien was related to ice cube. i thought that was neat, and also odd because del is against gangsta rap. but i guess it doesnt matter.
i bought a gallon of ice cream today from brusters. that was just about stupid, but i told cajy she woulda been proud. shes always trying to get me to buy icecream.
i didnt eat any. you guys know why.
i bought the never ending story I and II the other day. today i got the wizard. oh and charlie and the chocolate factory. i guess im takin it back. whatever that means.
cleaks II was funny. 75% of my friends disagree. it doesnt really matter.
black dave is a cop now at georgia tech. its cool, but sometimes it goes to his head. at least he has jarred to balance him out. jarred has gone completely anarchist. cant blame him, but i also cant say hes any worse off than the rest of us.
i guess thats why i wear the rubber band. searching for truth he says. but i say 'what happens when you find the truth'? do you say A-HA! I KNEW IT! i hardly think it would matter. in my field, its not controlling the masses, its changing opinions. why not change them back i say? because then youre no better. so then we are a people who know the truth but keep on doing what we do anyway. our opinions havnt really changed, our hearts and faith are still on the shelf getting webby.
paradox then? mind control? i liken it to this analogy:
ever wanted to get a group of people together to play a game? and then you did? and maybe you played for like 5 minutes and everyone just kinda quit playin and started doin other things? you insisted they play buy noone even payed attention? at this point i think the government could do whatever they wanted. sure, people would get mad. but would they act? i think they are too preoccupied with something more interesting. and at the same time the government has lost its control of its people. of course this all sounds better in my head right now, and im sure if i actually thought about it i would find a million holes.
and i just got a text from sara. i think shes a little lost herself. i guess thats her problem. at least shes still in school.
now it seems that there are no easy answers to the same ol questions ive been posed - lynn strait
i wish i still had my snot cd. i may go buy it again, since i dunno...its pretty fuckin badass. i think some of my friends are gonna get mad at me for writin so much and not using the compressed link dealy. but i dont know how to use that so get over it. i heard jessie (sic) was tryin to get a job down the street in little 5. id probably never go see her, but theres always the off chance ill run into her at target and ill say HEY! and shell say FUCK YOU CHILD MOLESTER! or something equally obnoxious.
i think thats about it.