Lookin Up!
So today was a pretty good day..things seem to be lookin up.
I went to lunch with Doug today (my youth pastor) and we talked for about an hour and a half about everything that was bothering me, and just things in general. It made me realize alot of things, and I really think that it helped me alot. Im finally doing ok again. I mean, this whole weekend I was just plain crazy...and now I feel half way normal, like Im worrying too much, and Im so insecure, and scared. I need to just let it go, and stop making such a big deal out of everything. I work myself up too much and I definitely need to be more independent. I am childish in alot of ways. Im also very jealous and selfish. I definitely feel God pushing his way back in. It's a very good feeling. Doug is great.
Everything should be going up hill from here. Im catching up with all of my stuff in school. I know what I want to do as a future career goal. I want to stop being so imature and become more independent and worry about things that matter more in life. Im working on my insecurity problem VERY VERY much. (thats going to be the toughest, but its all in my head..) Im almost done with highschool forever...I want to have a relationship with God again. Im just doing really good..in a matter of hours. Ive just been so negative, thats all..
Relient K
Let It All Out
Let it all out
get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmed
when the wound begins to bleed
cause we're so scared to find out
what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along
that's exactly what we need
and today I will trust you with confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me
crying out for consistency
and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
the end will justify the pain it took to get us there
and I'll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength
and you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength
and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me
reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you
and I know you know
you touched my life
when you touched my heavy heart and made it light
I went to lunch with Doug today (my youth pastor) and we talked for about an hour and a half about everything that was bothering me, and just things in general. It made me realize alot of things, and I really think that it helped me alot. Im finally doing ok again. I mean, this whole weekend I was just plain crazy...and now I feel half way normal, like Im worrying too much, and Im so insecure, and scared. I need to just let it go, and stop making such a big deal out of everything. I work myself up too much and I definitely need to be more independent. I am childish in alot of ways. Im also very jealous and selfish. I definitely feel God pushing his way back in. It's a very good feeling. Doug is great.
Everything should be going up hill from here. Im catching up with all of my stuff in school. I know what I want to do as a future career goal. I want to stop being so imature and become more independent and worry about things that matter more in life. Im working on my insecurity problem VERY VERY much. (thats going to be the toughest, but its all in my head..) Im almost done with highschool forever...I want to have a relationship with God again. Im just doing really good..in a matter of hours. Ive just been so negative, thats all..
Relient K
Let It All Out
Let it all out
get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmed
when the wound begins to bleed
cause we're so scared to find out
what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along
that's exactly what we need
and today I will trust you with confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me
crying out for consistency
and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
the end will justify the pain it took to get us there
and I'll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength
and you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength
and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me
reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you
and I know you know
you touched my life
when you touched my heavy heart and made it light