tv binge
so i watched a bunch of hulu or netflix recently. decided i'd finally watch that last season of rescue me. mind you i havent seen tv since early september. so i watched about 4 episodes in a row one day. freaking crying and rocking like a mental case because in one episode of the last season a bunch of firemen died. sooo pissed off that they would write that in, the last season. then, even more emotional when tommy woke up from a dream, and the firemen weren't really dead. and then it dawned on me, i am going down into this big emotional pit... over a FICTIONAL DRAMA. that I have basically turned my mood and emotions and mental health over to a bunch of hollywood writers who manipulate the shit out of my brain, and .. well no wonder i was exhausted the next day .. wrung out. it was like a binge of having my emotions yanked around.
so I'll be more selective about tv watching via netflix/hulu, and it's not likely that i will watch 4 hours of it in one sitting anyway. currently i'm getting interested in 2 tv shows and they are both sort of alternate-reality shows. one is called Awake and the other is Touch.