another eventful day.
Well It seems like I am always doing stuff, mostly spontaneous. So today I was doing my normal thing. The one day what I had planned was to sit around for a while then shower and clean up my room, start sorting what I wanted to take. Then I went online greeted a bit to my surprise by Vinny saying "David is coming to my house in a bit...this is going to be hilarious." I knew David as a Freshman, but Vinny knew him for a long time and has since told me of their antic together. So I passed this on to courtney who was a really close friend of his. She wanted to see him, and I did to say I offered to take her over if Vinny said it was okay. So I showered up,waited a while for my mom to come home so I could take the car or be given a ride. I also tried to call her, but the cell phone was not on. So I left her a note and took my brothers car, which turned out to have a broken mirror. Anyways I was called and had to go back hoime so I dropped off Courtney and went home did the dishes and was given a ride back. When I got there the boys were walking to krystals.Linda(courtney's mother) and Sandy(Vinny's mother). Kept us pretty entertained for a while. We went looking for them. They were missing. Anyways so Linda left me and court to wait Sandy volunteered to take us home later. So eventually they came back running in and out for a ehile they came to have dinner and finially stayed a while. David who I remember as being a little guy, has grown up, very attractive kid. A little on the weird side. So we went for a walked talked about pretty much everything you can imagine and still didn't really know what to do. That was about it. I was entertained but still felt the same feeling I have been getting lately something was missing I wasn't bored just not really having a lot of fun...or just not the fun I thought I would be having. Anyways I am going to get my behind up early tomorrow to go to their little car wash and barbeque to help raise money for vinny. One more day of stuff to do. I havn't had fun in a long time...and yet I'm the buisiest I have been. I think I am the kind of person that want to be doing something. I always think it is nice toget out of the house and just kick back and hang out, but then sometimes I just need to be out having fun. Ug I don't know. I keep doig things because I need to be social I don't want to loose that part of it. But I just get kind of down that I am basically not entertaining. I have never had to be that person a leader or the weird funny one always doing dumb things. I don't think I'm comfortable with it but my friends ands social group are those who are just not really out going enough. It seems as though most all of them are shy. I'm shy but I think I might be the louder one of the group....I think because I am forced to be. SO well It has been a while. I am going to miss everyone but yet things just feel wrong. I am getting more insecure and harder to please. In a way like I used to be. I hate being shy...but I am pretty tired, a lot of socialization takes work. Well overall today was not really that bad. I just feel, like I said, something was missing. Maybe I will contemplate on what exactly that might be. As always I could go on for hours. But just for fishdirt I wont ;). I don't want to take over his friends page.