losing mu fucking mind
migraines aerly daily since May !st and no on on gives a damn. seeinga neorlogist who has descided I either i eirther hhave sleep apnea (I don't fucking snore ever) or I'm just on to many psyhptropic meds to control whatever the fuck I have, It's in the air right now. all I knoww is I alternate betwen extreme irritabliliabiliy, rage, horrific depesssion and suicidal moods and no one gives a flying fuck. I'm leaning toward OD 50% of the times abd things have to get better 25% abd my life is just fucked so who gives a good god damn. I went to my friends in d-town hoping the thoughts wouldn't follow mw here but 4 migraines a lot of annoyannnce a lot of fun and a heaping lad of suicidal thought later and I feel the fucking same. I just want to sleep till this all goes away or die. I'm tired of the not stop pain, people worrying or not giving a fuck feeling like death is the only way put being drugged into oblivioun. I'm sick of this lif I',m living now and the fact that it's not getting any better. updates to follow as is if anyone gives a rats asss about how i actually feel in this fucking world