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Hmmm.. Fetish Pictures are fun. Specially in school. I'm sure Mr. Oswald caught a glimpse of my screen but eh.. its cool.
I think I've given up on all my interests at the moment. Women are just not my speciality are they. And I'm feeling bad for Squeaky, this fuckers got her all worked up over him, and it really looks like Hes gonna push her away. The bastard. I really feel bad for her, because it just happened to me.
I watched "Rent" with my mom today. I got a Bootleg copy of it. It was an okay copy of a GREAT movie. It was awesome, i swear i almost cried when Angel died. and then again when Mimi almost died. *pouts* I would have been pissed if they let her die.
I swear, youd think I never had any friends. With the lonelyness I feel. I hate it. I resent almost every couple I see. Specially the ones I hear about. I know i shouldnt, but its how i feel.
However with all that, I will not let myself become desparte for anyone. Wow now that would be a recipe for disaster. Like asking someone to stick my head under an axe.
I look around somedays, and I want to hurt people. The "men". Atleast thats what they call themselves. Like in my Photo class, this black guy, threatened to hit one of the girls. Gave him a comment on that and he didnt even care. What happended to the old ways? The better ways, where a man was respectful to a woman. Where he bought her flowers, opened the door for her, walked her to her car, pulled out her chair, paid for dinner, said nice things about her, thought about her before himself, always ready to help, to make them feel better, to care about them, treated her like she aught to be treated. Those ways, am I one of the only ones who still believes in those ways? And even if they do act like this, they expect something in return for it. I escpially cant stand the "men" who think that the affections of women dont mean anything. You know it really sucks when you can only think of two people that would fit underthat, myself, and my oldest friend, John.
I and him are also plagued with Heartache. Doesnt life blow sometimes...
I think I've given up on all my interests at the moment. Women are just not my speciality are they. And I'm feeling bad for Squeaky, this fuckers got her all worked up over him, and it really looks like Hes gonna push her away. The bastard. I really feel bad for her, because it just happened to me.
I watched "Rent" with my mom today. I got a Bootleg copy of it. It was an okay copy of a GREAT movie. It was awesome, i swear i almost cried when Angel died. and then again when Mimi almost died. *pouts* I would have been pissed if they let her die.
I swear, youd think I never had any friends. With the lonelyness I feel. I hate it. I resent almost every couple I see. Specially the ones I hear about. I know i shouldnt, but its how i feel.
However with all that, I will not let myself become desparte for anyone. Wow now that would be a recipe for disaster. Like asking someone to stick my head under an axe.
I look around somedays, and I want to hurt people. The "men". Atleast thats what they call themselves. Like in my Photo class, this black guy, threatened to hit one of the girls. Gave him a comment on that and he didnt even care. What happended to the old ways? The better ways, where a man was respectful to a woman. Where he bought her flowers, opened the door for her, walked her to her car, pulled out her chair, paid for dinner, said nice things about her, thought about her before himself, always ready to help, to make them feel better, to care about them, treated her like she aught to be treated. Those ways, am I one of the only ones who still believes in those ways? And even if they do act like this, they expect something in return for it. I escpially cant stand the "men" who think that the affections of women dont mean anything. You know it really sucks when you can only think of two people that would fit underthat, myself, and my oldest friend, John.
I and him are also plagued with Heartache. Doesnt life blow sometimes...