oh, god.
errr.
now, normally i wouldn't get involved in andrew and jenna's personal problems, because i want to spare andrew as much drama as possible. but since i was unjustly attacked, i was also dragged into this and given the right to speak my mind, and speak my mind is exactly what i'm going to do (and what i SHOULD'VE done a LONG time ago).
alright, i don't know HOW many HUNDREDS of THOUSANDS of times this has to be told to you, but andrew never ONCE cheated on you while you two were together. not with me, not with ANYONE. the idea was never even in our heads. in fact, i had even been trying to keep you two together, to the best of my ability. do you remember on new years, when you guys were fighting? and do you remember when andrew called you back and left a message saying he's sorry and that he loves you? do you know WHY he called you back that night? because of me. that's right, jenna, because of ME. i didn't want you two to bring the new year in being mad at eachother, so i told him it wasn't worth it and to call you back. on top of trying to keep you and andrew together (or at least SANE) on more than a few occasions, i tried to be YOUR FRIEND, too. do you remember that time you came to visit andrew and i bought those presents and bussed to andrew's appartment to give them to you? do you know WHY i did that? because earlier that night i had gone to goodwill and andrew was on his break. i sat down with him and asked him about you and what you're like, because you would somehow pop into EVERY conversation him and i had (at that point in time). he said you were pretty, smart, funny and kinda of a loner like me. like how we both have a billion acquaintances, but no actual FRIENDS and things of that nature. i sympathized tremendously and followed that with "well, i'll be her friend!!!" (and if you don't believe me, ask andrew). so, i went and bought you those presents and bussed to andrew's. not just to give you the presents, but i had planned on keeping you company until andrew got home from work, too. and did you know that when i got to andrew's, when you weren't there, i walked back and forth from my appartment to andrew's 5 TIMES (AT NIGHT, ON EAST OLTORF, WHICH IS VERY DANGEROUS), so i could hopefully catch you, or to make sure that you were alright? (because i noticed that the light was on and the door was locked). yeah, that TOTALLY sounds like the actions of some dirty, ravenous, SLUT, who just wanted to steal your (former) boyfriend from you, doesn't it? you'd think after all this time and drama, that if your accusations and assumptions were correct, andrew and i wouldn't feel the need to lie about it anymore. it certainly wouldn't make things any worse, because, honestly, andrew doesn't give two flying fucks about what you think of him at this point. you know, jenna, i had been NOTHING but nice to you the entire time i've known you and the fact you return that by saying i'm an "ugly chunky lesbian" and that you "hate my guts", COMPLETELY UNPREVOKED (other than because you're bitter), is quite possibly THE most sad thing to come out of this entire mess that you created (YES, YOU! - but i'll get to that later). the fact that you're so insecure that you couldn't trust someone who you'd been with for almost 4 YEARS, so you blame it on him and an innocent bystander is equally as pathetic. the fact that you felt the need to change the password and profile for andrew's yahoo account as well, is just plain stupid. andrew only had that email account because of you (nagging at him) and not only does he NOT check his email (nor anyone else - except today, when he told me to check for a confirmation email to something and that's how i'd found out what you've done), but the same goes for his profile as well. the only way in which you might've really put andrew out in doing what you did, is if some random person comes across his profile and says something like, "oh, his profession is an asshole and he's "married but looking", huh? HE SOUNDS LIKE A JERK!!! I BETTER NOT CHAT ON THE INTERNET WITH HIM!!!!". wow, jenna!!! WAY TO GO!!! i mean, really, COME ON.
but, yeah, as i said, "the mess YOU created". regardless of whether or not you want to BELIEVE andrew or i on the fact that he DID NOT cheat on you with me, it's still the TRUTH and you still went out and kissed some other guy (unless you lied about it to get attention and it severely backfired), solely to make andrew jealous. "vulnerable" my ass, because i've heard you've done similar things before. and, yes, andrew DID lie to you about hanging out with me, and for that he's truely sorry (as am i), but he wouldn't of HAD to if you would of just trusted him like you should of. you know andrew extremely well, you know he's not the kind of guy to just ditch his (close) friends and yet he STILL tried his hardest to avoid me, JUST to make you more at ease. it didn't work, thus he gave up and thus he had to lie about us hanging out. i think the fact that you made andrew FEEL like he had to lie to you is a lot worse than the fact that he actually lied to you in the first place. it pretty much boils down to no matter what he did to make you happy, it was just NEVER good enough for you, thus he gave up on that, too. "that" being you and him WORKING OUT. and if you REALLY want to get to the root of the problem, it all stems from your mass amounts of INSECURITY and the fact that you blame everyone for that, EXCEPT YOURSELF.
it's extremely frightening to me how delusional you are, in regards to this situation. knowing everything at hand, you still prance around like you're the helpless victim here. well, let me tell you, YOU'RE NOT and you're not even close. and while i'm sorry you and andrew broke up and that your life is "ruined", i honestly didn't have any part in it, other than i was unwillingly stuck in the middle of things. you can't go on blaming me for something i DID NOT DO, nor do you have PROOF of me doing, even if i did.
and i'm sure you're wondering, "if you guys were JUST FRIENDS, how come you two are so "close" now?". well, there are two answers to that. one being that, quite honestly, you put the idea into our heads. we figured, "we're being accused of it, why not?". the other answer being (and not meaning to quote mariah carey), we bonded through despondency. we became closer through all of the bullshit that was going on around us, because we were the only ones who fully understood and the release just felt nice.
just to further clarify, if everything above isn't enough, let me break a few things down for you:
"i am an asshole who does nothing but live off my parents money and sit around and play video games"
andrew goes to school, has his own appartment, his own car, several bills all in his name but he also has a JOB. now, correct me if i'm wrong, but isn't that one of the main purposes behind having/getting a job? you know, paying bills and such? the only time he EVER asks his parents for money is when he's not able to take out a loan from the pawn shop and i KNOW you know that. nice try.
"ugly chunky lesbian (who likes the occassional penis)"
ugly and chunky may be true, it's all a matter of oppinion. however, i don't like the occasional penis, i don't like penis AT ALL. i actually happen to like andrew for ANDREW. unlike you, where you focus all your time into who andrew SHOULD be or COULD be, instead of who he actually is.
"Screwing around on my girlfriend"
you're not his girlfriend anymore, i am. yes, you heard it from me first, it's official. so QUIT calling his mom to get attention, QUIT calling his FRIENDS to get attention, QUIT calling HERE to get attention and QUIT bad mouthing us ON THE INTERNET OR TO YOUR FRIENDS. you're not getting him back and these desperate attempts WILL NOT WORK. all it does is make him like you even less than he already does.
"I said i would marry my girlfriend, but lied and stopped loving her"
he didn't lie when he said he wanted to marry you. at the time, he meant it. he only stopped loving you when you started loving (as i said before) who you wish he could be, instead of HIM.
"Plus the rumors that i am gay are more true than i let on"
if that was true and he were to have cheated on you, wouldn't it be with a guy then, instead of ME?!
"and think up new lies to t"
i do not know what this "t" business is and if YOU would like to clear that up for ME or, perhaps, edit the profile with coherent sentances, feel free!
i know it must be real easy to blame me for the break up, because it's so hard to imagine someone you care about SO much hurting you in any way, and if you still feel like you have to do that (after reading everything i wrote), that's fine, i guess i can't really stop you. but i just would prefer if you knew MY side of the story (and the detailed FACTS) first, before jumping to conclusions. thank you for your time.
ps...
this is my catty, "i'm going to bash you on the internet, too", response, in regards to you calling me ugly. and, in regards to me being a "chunky lesbian", all you did is make YOURSELF look bad, in saying that. not only was i a hetero virgin (and had only been with girls) at that point, but i had never truely kissed a guy either and SOMEHOW i still ended up being a million times better in bed than you are. oh yes, dear. i've heard stories...
now, normally i wouldn't get involved in andrew and jenna's personal problems, because i want to spare andrew as much drama as possible. but since i was unjustly attacked, i was also dragged into this and given the right to speak my mind, and speak my mind is exactly what i'm going to do (and what i SHOULD'VE done a LONG time ago).
alright, i don't know HOW many HUNDREDS of THOUSANDS of times this has to be told to you, but andrew never ONCE cheated on you while you two were together. not with me, not with ANYONE. the idea was never even in our heads. in fact, i had even been trying to keep you two together, to the best of my ability. do you remember on new years, when you guys were fighting? and do you remember when andrew called you back and left a message saying he's sorry and that he loves you? do you know WHY he called you back that night? because of me. that's right, jenna, because of ME. i didn't want you two to bring the new year in being mad at eachother, so i told him it wasn't worth it and to call you back. on top of trying to keep you and andrew together (or at least SANE) on more than a few occasions, i tried to be YOUR FRIEND, too. do you remember that time you came to visit andrew and i bought those presents and bussed to andrew's appartment to give them to you? do you know WHY i did that? because earlier that night i had gone to goodwill and andrew was on his break. i sat down with him and asked him about you and what you're like, because you would somehow pop into EVERY conversation him and i had (at that point in time). he said you were pretty, smart, funny and kinda of a loner like me. like how we both have a billion acquaintances, but no actual FRIENDS and things of that nature. i sympathized tremendously and followed that with "well, i'll be her friend!!!" (and if you don't believe me, ask andrew). so, i went and bought you those presents and bussed to andrew's. not just to give you the presents, but i had planned on keeping you company until andrew got home from work, too. and did you know that when i got to andrew's, when you weren't there, i walked back and forth from my appartment to andrew's 5 TIMES (AT NIGHT, ON EAST OLTORF, WHICH IS VERY DANGEROUS), so i could hopefully catch you, or to make sure that you were alright? (because i noticed that the light was on and the door was locked). yeah, that TOTALLY sounds like the actions of some dirty, ravenous, SLUT, who just wanted to steal your (former) boyfriend from you, doesn't it? you'd think after all this time and drama, that if your accusations and assumptions were correct, andrew and i wouldn't feel the need to lie about it anymore. it certainly wouldn't make things any worse, because, honestly, andrew doesn't give two flying fucks about what you think of him at this point. you know, jenna, i had been NOTHING but nice to you the entire time i've known you and the fact you return that by saying i'm an "ugly chunky lesbian" and that you "hate my guts", COMPLETELY UNPREVOKED (other than because you're bitter), is quite possibly THE most sad thing to come out of this entire mess that you created (YES, YOU! - but i'll get to that later). the fact that you're so insecure that you couldn't trust someone who you'd been with for almost 4 YEARS, so you blame it on him and an innocent bystander is equally as pathetic. the fact that you felt the need to change the password and profile for andrew's yahoo account as well, is just plain stupid. andrew only had that email account because of you (nagging at him) and not only does he NOT check his email (nor anyone else - except today, when he told me to check for a confirmation email to something and that's how i'd found out what you've done), but the same goes for his profile as well. the only way in which you might've really put andrew out in doing what you did, is if some random person comes across his profile and says something like, "oh, his profession is an asshole and he's "married but looking", huh? HE SOUNDS LIKE A JERK!!! I BETTER NOT CHAT ON THE INTERNET WITH HIM!!!!". wow, jenna!!! WAY TO GO!!! i mean, really, COME ON.
but, yeah, as i said, "the mess YOU created". regardless of whether or not you want to BELIEVE andrew or i on the fact that he DID NOT cheat on you with me, it's still the TRUTH and you still went out and kissed some other guy (unless you lied about it to get attention and it severely backfired), solely to make andrew jealous. "vulnerable" my ass, because i've heard you've done similar things before. and, yes, andrew DID lie to you about hanging out with me, and for that he's truely sorry (as am i), but he wouldn't of HAD to if you would of just trusted him like you should of. you know andrew extremely well, you know he's not the kind of guy to just ditch his (close) friends and yet he STILL tried his hardest to avoid me, JUST to make you more at ease. it didn't work, thus he gave up and thus he had to lie about us hanging out. i think the fact that you made andrew FEEL like he had to lie to you is a lot worse than the fact that he actually lied to you in the first place. it pretty much boils down to no matter what he did to make you happy, it was just NEVER good enough for you, thus he gave up on that, too. "that" being you and him WORKING OUT. and if you REALLY want to get to the root of the problem, it all stems from your mass amounts of INSECURITY and the fact that you blame everyone for that, EXCEPT YOURSELF.
it's extremely frightening to me how delusional you are, in regards to this situation. knowing everything at hand, you still prance around like you're the helpless victim here. well, let me tell you, YOU'RE NOT and you're not even close. and while i'm sorry you and andrew broke up and that your life is "ruined", i honestly didn't have any part in it, other than i was unwillingly stuck in the middle of things. you can't go on blaming me for something i DID NOT DO, nor do you have PROOF of me doing, even if i did.
and i'm sure you're wondering, "if you guys were JUST FRIENDS, how come you two are so "close" now?". well, there are two answers to that. one being that, quite honestly, you put the idea into our heads. we figured, "we're being accused of it, why not?". the other answer being (and not meaning to quote mariah carey), we bonded through despondency. we became closer through all of the bullshit that was going on around us, because we were the only ones who fully understood and the release just felt nice.
just to further clarify, if everything above isn't enough, let me break a few things down for you:
"i am an asshole who does nothing but live off my parents money and sit around and play video games"
andrew goes to school, has his own appartment, his own car, several bills all in his name but he also has a JOB. now, correct me if i'm wrong, but isn't that one of the main purposes behind having/getting a job? you know, paying bills and such? the only time he EVER asks his parents for money is when he's not able to take out a loan from the pawn shop and i KNOW you know that. nice try.
"ugly chunky lesbian (who likes the occassional penis)"
ugly and chunky may be true, it's all a matter of oppinion. however, i don't like the occasional penis, i don't like penis AT ALL. i actually happen to like andrew for ANDREW. unlike you, where you focus all your time into who andrew SHOULD be or COULD be, instead of who he actually is.
"Screwing around on my girlfriend"
you're not his girlfriend anymore, i am. yes, you heard it from me first, it's official. so QUIT calling his mom to get attention, QUIT calling his FRIENDS to get attention, QUIT calling HERE to get attention and QUIT bad mouthing us ON THE INTERNET OR TO YOUR FRIENDS. you're not getting him back and these desperate attempts WILL NOT WORK. all it does is make him like you even less than he already does.
"I said i would marry my girlfriend, but lied and stopped loving her"
he didn't lie when he said he wanted to marry you. at the time, he meant it. he only stopped loving you when you started loving (as i said before) who you wish he could be, instead of HIM.
"Plus the rumors that i am gay are more true than i let on"
if that was true and he were to have cheated on you, wouldn't it be with a guy then, instead of ME?!
"and think up new lies to t"
i do not know what this "t" business is and if YOU would like to clear that up for ME or, perhaps, edit the profile with coherent sentances, feel free!
i know it must be real easy to blame me for the break up, because it's so hard to imagine someone you care about SO much hurting you in any way, and if you still feel like you have to do that (after reading everything i wrote), that's fine, i guess i can't really stop you. but i just would prefer if you knew MY side of the story (and the detailed FACTS) first, before jumping to conclusions. thank you for your time.
ps...
this is my catty, "i'm going to bash you on the internet, too", response, in regards to you calling me ugly. and, in regards to me being a "chunky lesbian", all you did is make YOURSELF look bad, in saying that. not only was i a hetero virgin (and had only been with girls) at that point, but i had never truely kissed a guy either and SOMEHOW i still ended up being a million times better in bed than you are. oh yes, dear. i've heard stories...