Hello agian...
I was sitting alone at home today thinking about alot. I relized I need to change alot in order to feel better about the loss of my mother. I need to relize shareing my saddness inst the only way to express it. I think if i express it art or songs that it will be somthing beautiful instead of somthing that is harmful. I meen me always crying and feeling migranes and being ignorant doesn't make me feel very healthy and after i do make these artistic emtional msterpieces i think I can finally start to recover. I had a long arguement with Kevin last nigth because i was tired and was beign greey and wanted kevin to only pay attention to me and talk to me and never play viedo games cuz I am sad and need to talk. I need that alot lately and am really doing nothing to change. I think tis is my best way to express my feelings and vent them out without bringing other to feel my sadness and make them pitty me.