Late at night

[manicbeaner19]

Oh man, times have changed. For the harder of course, but I'm ready. I have done so much in the past week that I once thought unimaginable. I got confirmed and strengthened my relationship with my Godfather, I ran at state and pretty damn good too, and got closer to my friends. But really in truth in the last week I have done alot of growing. More than I have done in a long time. I used to look at everything like it was pinning me down against the floor, but in truth it was only me. There is no one to compare mayself to.....except me. And this week I have tried to keep my head up and look at the positive side, and what do you know....i feel great. Things seemed different, things that used to hurt, only open my curiousity now. Much of my fears are put to ease now, not because I faced them or even conquered them, but because I have realized that everything we fear in life is only truly in our mind. My dad tells me that so much of what I think I cant do is only in my mind, and he is right, I never argued that. I just never really saw what he meant until now. In two days I saw so many things. I saw one of my friends lose before he even began, another lost because he forgot what he was really trying to do, another even though overwhelmed with tasks, managed to accomplish them to his best ability. And one last friend, I saw him finally face the truth he was trying so hard to hide, and he didnt run for a second, he faced it like a man. And as for myself....well I realized that at the end of the race when it seems you are about to die and you cant go any further, if you really want it bad enough, you will reach down and beat the odds against you. I rose to the occasion but I didnt make myself shine to the world. The only person I ever try to impress is my dad....and he even thought I couldn't do it. Yup alot has changed in me and I just hope that someone realizes it.....Like i said before, tomorrow is never a bad thing, not anymore at least. I wait for tomorrow, for another chance to win, not a race but a beautiful woman's heart.....

The serious jester,
-Emilio