Back to what I know best.....Chaos
Ever Growing Pain
So where do we turn when all seems lost and broken?
I asked myself every night holding my head in my hands
But in realizing that somehow my heart was still beating I felt relieved
I felt that even though so much has happened, I still managed to breath
My head may be down but I am still floating above the surface
In all my confusion and pain, somehow I have risen above myself
And even though I am filled with so much fear for tomorrow
I know nothing will ever stop it from coming, so I will in turn do my best
I will try to be the leader of the lost, instead of the lost among leaders
I have seen leaders only lead the strong, and the weak straggling behind too often
Hiding my wounds, I will try to lead others in the right path
Bleeding in my side, I will continue without a second thought
Beaten down and left behind, I will not forget who I am and become distraught
Through comments and whispering lies, I will continue to tomorrow
With hope that tomorrow can somehow be better
That in my living, I can help others, even if I am not helped
That somehow I will find someone to hold my hand as I sit and wait
Everyone around me whispers that hope is lost and tomorrow will never come
But instead I continue to walk ignoring the voices I cannot see
Concentrated on the tasks at hand, and ignoring the rain on my back
Even when others leave me outside to the cold Earth
I sit and wait for tomorrow to begin, with hope for the run to rise
Even when all the leaders around me seems wrong in there ways
I continue to fuel my ideas and beliefs instead of admitting failure
When everyone gives up their ideal to the idol Gods before them
I turn a blind eye and walk past the Golden Calf
Afraid and tired of what could possible happen next, I close my eyes
I go to the one place where everything makes sense
And I wait for my mind to calm and return to its task
Even with the world on our shoulders, we can all find peace somewhere
Any where from a place to a friend, to an object that means something
Salvation can be found, even in me
But once again, my mind is scrambled to a paste of nothing
With thoughts colliding with each other, I become numb
My body following automatic commands, as weary as it is
Everything backed up in my mind, but confusion falls over me
Where do we go from here I wonder? Where do you turn when you lose your way?
I am left to re-invent myself, shed the old and start the new
From ashes to flesh as I mend all the past to form the future
One step at a time, may seem like a slow process but it never fails
Even at our weakest we can find the peace and quiet in life
At our most tired, we find a way to stay awake through the day
With the most pain, we manage to forgive and walk again
When all is lost, just finding anything is something
So where do we turn when all seems lost and broken?
I asked myself every night holding my head in my hands
But in realizing that somehow my heart was still beating I felt relieved
I felt that even though so much has happened, I still managed to breath
My head may be down but I am still floating above the surface
In all my confusion and pain, somehow I have risen above myself
And even though I am filled with so much fear for tomorrow
I know nothing will ever stop it from coming, so I will in turn do my best
I will try to be the leader of the lost, instead of the lost among leaders
I have seen leaders only lead the strong, and the weak straggling behind too often
Hiding my wounds, I will try to lead others in the right path
Bleeding in my side, I will continue without a second thought
Beaten down and left behind, I will not forget who I am and become distraught
Through comments and whispering lies, I will continue to tomorrow
With hope that tomorrow can somehow be better
That in my living, I can help others, even if I am not helped
That somehow I will find someone to hold my hand as I sit and wait
Everyone around me whispers that hope is lost and tomorrow will never come
But instead I continue to walk ignoring the voices I cannot see
Concentrated on the tasks at hand, and ignoring the rain on my back
Even when others leave me outside to the cold Earth
I sit and wait for tomorrow to begin, with hope for the run to rise
Even when all the leaders around me seems wrong in there ways
I continue to fuel my ideas and beliefs instead of admitting failure
When everyone gives up their ideal to the idol Gods before them
I turn a blind eye and walk past the Golden Calf
Afraid and tired of what could possible happen next, I close my eyes
I go to the one place where everything makes sense
And I wait for my mind to calm and return to its task
Even with the world on our shoulders, we can all find peace somewhere
Any where from a place to a friend, to an object that means something
Salvation can be found, even in me
But once again, my mind is scrambled to a paste of nothing
With thoughts colliding with each other, I become numb
My body following automatic commands, as weary as it is
Everything backed up in my mind, but confusion falls over me
Where do we go from here I wonder? Where do you turn when you lose your way?
I am left to re-invent myself, shed the old and start the new
From ashes to flesh as I mend all the past to form the future
One step at a time, may seem like a slow process but it never fails
Even at our weakest we can find the peace and quiet in life
At our most tired, we find a way to stay awake through the day
With the most pain, we manage to forgive and walk again
When all is lost, just finding anything is something