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you stop in front of the reflection and ask who you've become. what you've become. what is pride when you have nothing. how does it help to force control upon someone else's life because you are not able to be in control of your own. aspirin and water. sobbing, praying, ashamed and nauseated. then even these bodily reactions are selfish acts to atone for your cruelty and vindictive ways. the mindmap that leads to auto self forgiveness once enough tears have fallen to cause a headache. like it would all be fair and you could return to treating people the way you are used to. like you are entitled to be owed. until the day someone speaks up again and you start crying and you stop in front of the reflection and ask who you've become. what you've become. what is pride when you have nothing. how does it help to force control upon someone else's life because you are not able to be in control of your own. aspirin and water. sobbing, praying, ashamed and nauseated. then even these bodily reactions are selfish acts to atone for your cruelty and vindictive ways. the mindmap that leads to auto self forgiveness once enough tears have fallen to cause a headache. like it would all be fair and you could return to treating people the way you are used to. like you are entitled to be owed. until the day you speak up to yourself.