But I can't

[maniaontheloose]

Reading through what was before me
I trid to absorb it all in
But the head it keeps hurting.
It feels so heavy.
I want to relieve it off the pain it feels.
I want to give it a chance to breathe.

I want to scream.
I want to cry.
I want to close me eyes and never wake up
I want to indulge myself in food
Every waking minute
I want to close my ears to everything ANYONE says.

I want the blood to drain.
I want the world to stop spinning.
I wont ask of any more
IF and only IF YOU can fulfill what I want.

So,when would you?

No matter how happy I show myself to be
When I dont feel good health wise,
I feel like *censored* emotionally.

Why?