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It's been 102 days since my last journal.. that's 27.95% of a year that's gone by.. yeah.. >.> A lot has happened, so I would hope to think, and I'm not really going to mention any of the nitty gritty details, because frankly, I don't remember them now. :) Sad? Don't be, it's not going to get you anywhere. I suppose.. I should mention that I've finally grown up and turned 16, last of the junior class to do so.. as usual, minus.. the junior part. I haven't gotten my permit yet, but I will when I have the chance.. which I have had plenty of.. let's make that: a chance that I feel like taking. A chance? A chance that I won't pass that silly test? No, not likely, but it's still a chance to do something, and that something, I would take. Don't read it like an American and you'll understand what's not to understand about that statement. Oh, and I don't like my school any more this year than I ever have, and the past short period of time in the building has felt much like a blur.. and it seems a bit confusing until I get out, and do whatever I'll do. Not to say any of it's hard, because it's not, but everything.. just.. rushes by me and all I can think about is leaving. Leaving my seat, leaving the room, leaving the school, leaving my home, leaving the city. I'd like to leave. I don't really know why, but I'm sick of it, basically. I'm sure it will pass.. or.. not pass, but move itself into the background from which it came so that I can concentrate on other things. I've been spending a lot more time online than I had been previously [recently].. which is a bit ridiculous.. I won't go into it. :/
Yes, well.. my birthday.. the night prior, Lucas and Peter came over to my house and we setup our PS2s and such.. drank a lot of Mountain Dew, and ate some pizza. Pete and I played SOCOM, Pistols Respawn with lag is lame... and Gutch did what he does best and didn't participate (ha..), but instead, he played MH. I can't say it really mattered though, because he was still there with us, and that's all the matters, right? Indeed, Laura has taken up most.. if not all of his time since they began dating. Not a problem.. Anyways, we didn't sleep much, but after we had, we ate mini-bagel egg sandwhiches, they were scary, and then headed to the mall. I picked up my pre-ordered DS immediately (it was the release date) and Pete frantically asked for them at the GameStop desk, to which ass hole employee #1 replied, "Heh, NDS eh? I don't think so, but you can try running down to FYE, heard they had some, but you better be quick, there might be a line." Pete runs off, and remains ~30ft. ahead of me all the way into the store.. I was scolded by security twice, and I'm not sure how he wasn't.. but.. he wasn't. Yes, good for Pete, FYE has them, but wait, there's a catch, at FYE, you have to buy a game with your NDS, and Pete didn't have enough. *tear.. orr.. should I say.. [€MO]T€AR cough* He should have broken down crying like he said he would, but he didn't. ; ; We also checked some other places, blah blah, they said no and I had mine. *Dance* We had 2 hours to kill so we decided that we ought to try out the wireless shiznizzle with the display DS's in GameStop. Just before doing this though, Peter buys Metroid Prime 2: Echoes with some of his NDS money, as it's now useless. Well.. we're doing this for a while, and employee #2 over-hears me picking on Pete for not having one (we're geeks, I'm sorry) and mentions that some three people had cancelled their orders that particular morning and that he could buy one if he wanted. But Pete's out of cash *cue soap opera/drama climax music*.. thank god for credit cards. Employee #1 walked by and smirked when Pete was paying too, I hate his cracker ass. Pete's in debt now.. and I took a survey. That day went by.. and.. umm.. now I'm dead... yeah.. dead. Dead or I don't have anything to write about for the next few minutes or so. :)
So.. yeah.. tonight was the Winter Formal @ DeSales. I had held firm to my stand on.. 'I'm not going, there's no point,' and now I feel that I had made the wrong decision those many moons ago. After spending the entire day without contact with anyone for more than a few minutes between their busy schedules in preperation, and playing Mario 64 DS (17 stars or the formal.. hmm..); I went to the visiting half hour with my mum. I conversed with some people, and it looked kindof fun.. even though I wouldn't have danced. I don't know, I think I was more worried about getting ready for it when I had made my decision than actually going.. it looked just swell.. and my friends were there.. Bah, but if I was going to have a date, I'd want a real one, and not just a friend.. (Personal rule I just randomly established? Possibly.) but then again, it would have been great just to go alone.. I guess it doesn't matter now. But my wrist-band smelled when I was there. Reminds me.. I've been feeling inceasing anxiety over the fact that I am without love, and while I do realize it's not quite as important at my age for most, and it's not going to really matter when this sort of thing comes about.. I feel like I'm missing out on something, something that just about everyone else I know has had at one time or another, and it sucks. :/ I develop crushes, but that's all they are, and that's where they'll stay. Not because I'm not going to pursue it, but because that's just how it stays, and it's getting to me. I don't know, I know I shouldn't care, and I don't.. but I do.. and.. it's all very pointless. I think I'll stop with this now, and end this journal. Look Mitch, I actually updated! Aren't you excited? No? Sorry.. oh.. and the picture is just an old picture of me, with different colors, and for some random reason, I cut my hair in it (heh..) and cleaned everythig up a bit. I no longer look dirty. And when I did it, it inspired me as to how I might design my next project.. following.. umm.. nothing.. but.. BrianAugustusYo.com ought to be fun when I get around to doing it.. if I get around to doing it. Didn't I say this was ending? Hell yes I did. I appologize for it's length if it is long, they usually are. I'd use cuts, but I'm lazy I suppose..