life these days
just doesn't feel complete... like there is something missing
nothing is really bad... just different
I was thinking about how the snake pit isn't a choice of a place to go anymore
I want to find another place like that used to be for me... not really the music side (even tho jungle would be an EXCELLENT addition to the night) but more like a crowded place that I could become a "regular" at... know people... be able to go there alone when I wanted to get out of the house
Also, someone asked me today if I was thinking about moving back home because of my mom
I don't want to feel guilty for saying "no"
I would definitely go back for a long while... few months and stuff
And I love the east coast... really miss it a lot sometimes.
But, aside from my mom, there is really not a reason I want to move back there NOW... maybe in the future, but not now
I love snowboarding
I love 4wheeling
I love Colorado... the weather, the scenery
I miss east coast people (love their attitude :D)
and I miss all of the trees back east
I hope this decision does not have to come soon
I think I need to make time to go visit for a long weekend... in November or something... and then again at Christmas.
I also have none of the same close friends as I did last year at this time (except for Erik, but he will always stay a friend!)
Last year at this time was the DSP campout... one of the funnest times of the summer! I miss all of those people. Where did everyone go? Last summer seems like ages ago.
The only option is to move forward. With the pit being gone... seems like the scene is so different to me. I still love it, but it is not the same anymore. I loved Nocturnal Wonderland in Cali. I don't want to be a jaded raver. I just miss the old times with old friends.
Blah
Something interesting needs to start happening in my life.
buy a house
go back to school
SOMETHING!
nothing is really bad... just different
I was thinking about how the snake pit isn't a choice of a place to go anymore
I want to find another place like that used to be for me... not really the music side (even tho jungle would be an EXCELLENT addition to the night) but more like a crowded place that I could become a "regular" at... know people... be able to go there alone when I wanted to get out of the house
Also, someone asked me today if I was thinking about moving back home because of my mom
I don't want to feel guilty for saying "no"
I would definitely go back for a long while... few months and stuff
And I love the east coast... really miss it a lot sometimes.
But, aside from my mom, there is really not a reason I want to move back there NOW... maybe in the future, but not now
I love snowboarding
I love 4wheeling
I love Colorado... the weather, the scenery
I miss east coast people (love their attitude :D)
and I miss all of the trees back east
I hope this decision does not have to come soon
I think I need to make time to go visit for a long weekend... in November or something... and then again at Christmas.
I also have none of the same close friends as I did last year at this time (except for Erik, but he will always stay a friend!)
Last year at this time was the DSP campout... one of the funnest times of the summer! I miss all of those people. Where did everyone go? Last summer seems like ages ago.
The only option is to move forward. With the pit being gone... seems like the scene is so different to me. I still love it, but it is not the same anymore. I loved Nocturnal Wonderland in Cali. I don't want to be a jaded raver. I just miss the old times with old friends.
Blah
Something interesting needs to start happening in my life.
buy a house
go back to school
SOMETHING!