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When you planned out a future with someone else, it feels like you are building a dream. Then suddenly you woke up, everything's gone.
My feet reach for the ground beside my bed, it feels so unstable, dizzy, like I've been dreaming for too long. Every time I close my eyes I feel the air around is quivering, it feels like I'm sinking while the world is spinning. When I open my eyes, everything seems like a blur.
There seems to be something pressing down on my chest, and it feels difficult to breathe, then time to time a weird pain starts from inside spreading to other parts of my body, to the tips of my fingers, and then it stops..
It feels cold even below the thick blanket, I feel so bare, exposed and vulnerable. I went to look at myself in the mirror, to see if anything is wrong. Still alive and breathing, the same way I remembered.
I hug this huge white pillow just to make sure it's real too, and sat in front of the mirror, to know I'm not an illusion to myself, and just stare at myself with my eyes wide open.
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