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well, this is how it's been going
the past 2 weeks or so have been filled with utter and complete confusion. i feel like my entire life is slowly unraveling out of control.
absolutely everything that could go wrong, has, all at once.
i am looking forward to my trip with the girlies in may, but, the need to leave here, and leave everything behind is just constantly growing.
i feel like i'm 2 inches tall right now, and i'm sick of it. i hate this. so much. i want it to be over, i want school to end, i hate it. i want to quit my job, i hate my manager. it's not my fault that i need to start later on some days, or cant work at all on others, i'm just a part timer, that's it. so stop giving me shit about it.
i feel so lost, like what am i supposed to do when i'm done school? i finish next march, i can't write my boards until may, so right there what doi do with the time? and what about when i write my boards? do i just stay here, and get a job, and live the life i've never wanted?? i've never wanted to be a hygienist, and more importantly, i've never ever wanted to live my life in toronto, or even in canada. it honestly scares the hell out of me, that the way things are looking right now,imay end up living the exact life that i promised myself i would never have.
i'm just so all over the place, and i hate it!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i want to have my head back on straight, and know what's going on, and know what i want out of life, and make it happen. it's that simple. and i will get back on that track eventually, just not quite sure when.......
the past 2 weeks or so have been filled with utter and complete confusion. i feel like my entire life is slowly unraveling out of control.
absolutely everything that could go wrong, has, all at once.
i am looking forward to my trip with the girlies in may, but, the need to leave here, and leave everything behind is just constantly growing.
i feel like i'm 2 inches tall right now, and i'm sick of it. i hate this. so much. i want it to be over, i want school to end, i hate it. i want to quit my job, i hate my manager. it's not my fault that i need to start later on some days, or cant work at all on others, i'm just a part timer, that's it. so stop giving me shit about it.
i feel so lost, like what am i supposed to do when i'm done school? i finish next march, i can't write my boards until may, so right there what doi do with the time? and what about when i write my boards? do i just stay here, and get a job, and live the life i've never wanted?? i've never wanted to be a hygienist, and more importantly, i've never ever wanted to live my life in toronto, or even in canada. it honestly scares the hell out of me, that the way things are looking right now,imay end up living the exact life that i promised myself i would never have.
i'm just so all over the place, and i hate it!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i want to have my head back on straight, and know what's going on, and know what i want out of life, and make it happen. it's that simple. and i will get back on that track eventually, just not quite sure when.......