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well, this day was a bust.....i dont know why exactly....the show was good.....gabe was ok.......i dropped him off at home, and all of a sudden, as i drove home, i just started crying. i dont know why.....he picked up some ugly chick at our booth today....but this girl paula kept saying how she thinks we should hook up, without me even saying anything to her....so it's obvious i guess......but if it's so obvious what's there between us, then why are we in this situation??
i've decided i need to leave gary alot sooner, than later. and by the way our conversations have been going lately, who the fuck knows what's going to happen.
gabe pointed out to me taht i'm afraid to be single, and i think he's really right. so ideally, i need to clear my head of all guys, and just be on my own. not even with gabe, or have anything to do with him, except for our working relationship.
since i got home, i just keep crying over this, and this really isn't like me, at all. so i'm just really confused. i mean, i want him so much that it's getting to the point that it literally hurts, and i can't have him, because i'm too much of a pussy to break it off with gary. so yah, maybe no guys is best....
anyways, i saw Ron Jeremy today, paula asked for a hug and kiss, and he's like why stop there? why not penetration? hahahahahahahahahhahahaa
that guy is my hero, what an ugly mother fucker, but wow, has he gotten laid.........gotta love him.
i've decided i need to leave gary alot sooner, than later. and by the way our conversations have been going lately, who the fuck knows what's going to happen.
gabe pointed out to me taht i'm afraid to be single, and i think he's really right. so ideally, i need to clear my head of all guys, and just be on my own. not even with gabe, or have anything to do with him, except for our working relationship.
since i got home, i just keep crying over this, and this really isn't like me, at all. so i'm just really confused. i mean, i want him so much that it's getting to the point that it literally hurts, and i can't have him, because i'm too much of a pussy to break it off with gary. so yah, maybe no guys is best....
anyways, i saw Ron Jeremy today, paula asked for a hug and kiss, and he's like why stop there? why not penetration? hahahahahahahahahhahahaa
that guy is my hero, what an ugly mother fucker, but wow, has he gotten laid.........gotta love him.