now you know
anonymous
August 26 2007, 03:14:39 UTC
Well, I really thought you'd figure it out earlier...but you are good...it is (Martha). :) We do need to talk but it'll have to wait a couple of weeks...I'm going to be rather busy the next two weeks. However, I don't have your number to call you. And a beer is out of the question!! :)
I'm glad you are not angry...when I found your blog, my heart hurt for you!!! That was the reason for the "execution of my actions"...annonymously I chose as I stated in my last message to you. I really thought if you realized who it was you wouldn't pay any regard to what I was trying to get across to you. I didn't want to really "argue" our beliefs...obviously they differ greatly. Just like you feel the "black sheep", we feel sometimes that we are taken as "self-righteous fanatics" although that is not our intent at all!
I remember when you were born, when you were just a little guy...in fact those memories of you are a whole lot clearer than the past almost eleven years I've been gone. In a way, that's who you still are to me even though you've obviously changed...as we all do. Even though I don't agree with you on many things, I still love you and care about you.
I do want to reassure you that I have not shared with any of the family what I have read on your blog. Your Grandma does know that I was leaving you a few messages, but I just told her to pray for you because it seemed you had some struggles you were dealing with. That's all she knows. Bryce hasn't read all of your blog...he doesn't have that kind of time.
However, I do want to remind you that this is the WORLD WIDE WEB!!! (Don't be too impressed with my skills) and nothing is sacred or private that you post. I do know that someone else in the family has viewed your myspace. You really need to set it to private if you do not want anyone reading it. I found you when I was bored one time just going thru myspace seeing who was on there that I know...you won't find me on myspace...I have a fake id and no profile to speak of.
Anyways, I didn't really know how to reply to you...but I decide to just give you the intent of my heart, open and honest...you'll find I'm a pretty blunt, open person (if you don't remember). So there it is....
I'm glad you are not angry...when I found your blog, my heart hurt for you!!! That was the reason for the "execution of my actions"...annonymously I chose as I stated in my last message to you. I really thought if you realized who it was you wouldn't pay any regard to what I was trying to get across to you. I didn't want to really "argue" our beliefs...obviously they differ greatly. Just like you feel the "black sheep", we feel sometimes that we are taken as "self-righteous fanatics" although that is not our intent at all!
I remember when you were born, when you were just a little guy...in fact those memories of you are a whole lot clearer than the past almost eleven years I've been gone. In a way, that's who you still are to me even though you've obviously changed...as we all do. Even though I don't agree with you on many things, I still love you and care about you.
I do want to reassure you that I have not shared with any of the family what I have read on your blog. Your Grandma does know that I was leaving you a few messages, but I just told her to pray for you because it seemed you had some struggles you were dealing with. That's all she knows. Bryce hasn't read all of your blog...he doesn't have that kind of time.
However, I do want to remind you that this is the WORLD WIDE WEB!!! (Don't be too impressed with my skills) and nothing is sacred or private that you post. I do know that someone else in the family has viewed your myspace. You really need to set it to private if you do not want anyone reading it. I found you when I was bored one time just going thru myspace seeing who was on there that I know...you won't find me on myspace...I have a fake id and no profile to speak of.
Anyways, I didn't really know how to reply to you...but I decide to just give you the intent of my heart, open and honest...you'll find I'm a pretty blunt, open person (if you don't remember). So there it is....
Love & Prayers,
Martha
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