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Long time no post, I can't believe its been two months since my last post. Not too much new. Been getting out of the house alot and hanging out with friends, making some new friends. I guess i'm still not happy though. I mean while i'm hanging out with people i'm all good and happy. But i guess when i come home and I'm alone I realize i'm not happy in actuality. I realize I can never get too close to those people or completely trust them. I feel like I can never fully trust anyone ever. Although some people I feel like I have a kinship with. For example Steve. Lately you remind me more and more of me than I ever thought. I remember when we first talked I thought you were a fucking asshole, but now I feel a connection. Thats not meant to sound gay or anything. heh.
My brother as i'm finding out lately is comjpletely not what i expected. In some regards hes the opposite of what I thought. He's so much like me in some respects its scary. I've found this all out secondhand from my mom. I so much want to talk to him about so many things about us. Maybe he knows about it. Maybe he found out the way I did just after years and years. But he may not know at all. I should grow some balls and tell him before I miss my chance.
I feel like i'm lost on my path right now. I'm waiting for some direction but I haven't got it recently. I've been thinking about trying to speed up the process, i have a few ideas but I dont know if I want to go to those lengths. I guess i can wait a little longer. I just hate not knowing what the hell i'm doing. But i guess no one really knows what theyre doing.
I still don't know if i'm going to SD. I wasn't able to get a room and my financial status recently is horrendus. I dunno if i'll be able to work the money issues out in time or not. I'd like to go though.
I guess thats it, Just felt like making a post. Laters all.
My brother as i'm finding out lately is comjpletely not what i expected. In some regards hes the opposite of what I thought. He's so much like me in some respects its scary. I've found this all out secondhand from my mom. I so much want to talk to him about so many things about us. Maybe he knows about it. Maybe he found out the way I did just after years and years. But he may not know at all. I should grow some balls and tell him before I miss my chance.
I feel like i'm lost on my path right now. I'm waiting for some direction but I haven't got it recently. I've been thinking about trying to speed up the process, i have a few ideas but I dont know if I want to go to those lengths. I guess i can wait a little longer. I just hate not knowing what the hell i'm doing. But i guess no one really knows what theyre doing.
I still don't know if i'm going to SD. I wasn't able to get a room and my financial status recently is horrendus. I dunno if i'll be able to work the money issues out in time or not. I'd like to go though.
I guess thats it, Just felt like making a post. Laters all.