a crazy yet thought provoking rant in three parts.
Two major rants for the day...
About anthropological theory.
And Death/Life.
One is this quote out of my anthropological theory textbook... its in a feminist critique piece:
"How are we to explain the universal devaluation of women? We could of course rest the case on biological determinism. There is something genetically inherent in the male species... that makes them naturally the dominant sex; that "something" is lacking in females, and as a result women are not only naturally subordinate but in general quite satisfied with their position, since it affords them protection and the opportunity to maximize maternal pleasures, which to them are the most satisfying experiences of life."
i have never been so freakin offended in my life. Even more so if there are people out there who actually are biological determinists who actually believe that women are inferior simply bc of bullshit like this. but the thing that pisses me off SOOOO much about this quote -- the last bit of the last sentence...
"quite satisfied... oppurtunity to maximize maternal pleasures, which to them are the most satisfying experiences of life."
BULL FUCKING SHIT. i know a lot of my friends would go with SEX as their most satisfying experience in life. others would probalby say their education, and still more might say something completely different. i guess some people can get the best out of being maternal (i sure as hell know i dont). its not my lack of being a "girl" or being maternal at all that is what makes me so angry about this statement. i think even if i did want to someday be a mom, i would be pissed off from a pure intellectual stanpoint. this is a complete generalization.
how the fuck dare some (no doubt sexist) biological bullshit determinist generalize that ALLLLL the like billions of women on this earth, and in the history of all the... i dont even know a word for a number that big... would gain the most pleasure and satisfaction from being a mother. its just... so unbelievably... IDIODIC!!! (which i realize i may have spelled wrong, but given thats its 1:11 am and ive been up since 1030 am and been reading all fucking day... im allowed spelling mistakes). like woman's only function is to spread em and pop out baby after baby to procure the human races existence on earth. FUCK do i get so angry by this generalized bullshit sometimes.
thankfully, the article i was reading was explaining a lot of stuff that made sense. like why women's place in society/culture is seen as inferior all cultures, or at least inderior in some way. connected to culture as superior to nature, and women being related to nature, and thats why and then through biological (childrearing) and then through social, and it all made sense and is kinda sending me back into my feminist craze again. but oh well. a lot of her points came from Simone de Beauvior's THE SECOND SEX. which i really want to read now, and recomend it to everyone of both sexes.
so my second rant of the day stems vaguely from GREY'S ANATOMY. so i was watching today and it was a bunch of horse shit about romeo and juliet and love and shit... and then DEATH being involved and... well its sorta from this old couple on the show that was totally in love. wifey was sick and having her gullbladder removed. they found cancer, and inevitably discovered she had appx. 4-6 months to live. told hubby boy about it, and he said DO NOT TELL WIFEY. bc he didnt want her last months on earth to be in a hospital or to be in fear of the inevitable, blah blah blah. he was in love. so then... the doctor finally tells old wifey the sitch, bc its a doctor-patient-gotta-do-it sorta thing. so wifey is like "did you tell my hubby boy" bc she doesnt want him to know. bc she doesnt want him to be hurt or fear losing her. basically your overall ridiculous old folks way too in love with each other after 60 years makes you wanna puke and smile and cry and be old all at the same time kinda situation.
so it got me thinking about this inevitable DEATH. (the thought popped back in my mind in my feminist reading from the above rant -- inevitably we will all die sort of talk). and im like, first, EEEEPP!! (bc though i may not admit it sometimes, im scared to death of dying and death-like situations), and second, im like, holy fucking shit dude.
its the total truth. like i try not to think about it, bc it just freaks me out. but thats how all of our lives are going to end. whether we're billionaires or serial rapists or mother-teresa-like-saints, we will all one day meet the exact same fate. DEATH.
so it lead me to thinking about vices. YES VICES. like smoking, drinking, drugs, promiscuity, gluttony, etc, etc, whatever other vices you can think of. whats the point? so what if theyre vices? we're all gonna die someday anyway, theres no stopping it. there's postponing it a little longer (and with the advent of new found medical sciences people are living way longer than they should be and literally will lose thier mind before they lose their bodily functions). i mean, when someone tells me (in reference to my cigarettes) "those things will kill you" the old cliche answer is so true "life will kill you" b/c inevitably IT FUCKING WILL.
none of us are safe. and while, yes, understand great trajedies are just such, in all technicallity, they dont really matter-- bc all that happened was the fucking inevitable. yeah im disgustingly morbid, and unsympathetic, and some might even say dehumanized, and most definetly pessismistic. but so much bad shit happens in this world (i know thats a quote from some movie but im too tired to remember which one right now, DAMNIT) why does anything even fucking matter anymore?
what the hell is a bachelor's degree going to do for me? allow me to get my masters, to get a good paying job, to work for the rest of my life til i die of lung cancer from my smokes or some other form of hereditary cancer or heart disease from my family or who knows what else i could die of? its all pointless, life is fucking pointless and none of it makes any sense.
oooohh which brings me to another point which i had forgotten about previously but just remembered... if youve ever seen "I Heart Huckabees" you know what im talking about -- the existentialists -- the whole everything is connected and not connected thing -- where you can see the universe coming apart in little dots and bigger dots. well if you ever just sit and stare at something for awhile -- even just the air and the background of whats in front of you, just REALLY stare -- and think about it, and think about the dots and what reality is, and what is really in front of you -- you can kinda see the world coming apart and the little pieces that fit together like the pixels on a computer screen.
its really weird.
and i realize ive probably just scared anyone who's reading this, or made them think im on drugs, which i am certainly not for i gave them up over a year ago (except my devoted nicotine and the occasiaonl over indulgence in alcohol).
whatever... i think im going crazy with all these thoughts, but they are there. and they should be heard. bc i think other people should think about shit like this. not so they can be sad and depressed and pessimistic. just so that they can take a gander at another way of looking at things ...
everything is inevitable -- especially death. we all just have to accept that i guess.
About anthropological theory.
And Death/Life.
One is this quote out of my anthropological theory textbook... its in a feminist critique piece:
"How are we to explain the universal devaluation of women? We could of course rest the case on biological determinism. There is something genetically inherent in the male species... that makes them naturally the dominant sex; that "something" is lacking in females, and as a result women are not only naturally subordinate but in general quite satisfied with their position, since it affords them protection and the opportunity to maximize maternal pleasures, which to them are the most satisfying experiences of life."
i have never been so freakin offended in my life. Even more so if there are people out there who actually are biological determinists who actually believe that women are inferior simply bc of bullshit like this. but the thing that pisses me off SOOOO much about this quote -- the last bit of the last sentence...
"quite satisfied... oppurtunity to maximize maternal pleasures, which to them are the most satisfying experiences of life."
BULL FUCKING SHIT. i know a lot of my friends would go with SEX as their most satisfying experience in life. others would probalby say their education, and still more might say something completely different. i guess some people can get the best out of being maternal (i sure as hell know i dont). its not my lack of being a "girl" or being maternal at all that is what makes me so angry about this statement. i think even if i did want to someday be a mom, i would be pissed off from a pure intellectual stanpoint. this is a complete generalization.
how the fuck dare some (no doubt sexist) biological bullshit determinist generalize that ALLLLL the like billions of women on this earth, and in the history of all the... i dont even know a word for a number that big... would gain the most pleasure and satisfaction from being a mother. its just... so unbelievably... IDIODIC!!! (which i realize i may have spelled wrong, but given thats its 1:11 am and ive been up since 1030 am and been reading all fucking day... im allowed spelling mistakes). like woman's only function is to spread em and pop out baby after baby to procure the human races existence on earth. FUCK do i get so angry by this generalized bullshit sometimes.
thankfully, the article i was reading was explaining a lot of stuff that made sense. like why women's place in society/culture is seen as inferior all cultures, or at least inderior in some way. connected to culture as superior to nature, and women being related to nature, and thats why and then through biological (childrearing) and then through social, and it all made sense and is kinda sending me back into my feminist craze again. but oh well. a lot of her points came from Simone de Beauvior's THE SECOND SEX. which i really want to read now, and recomend it to everyone of both sexes.
so my second rant of the day stems vaguely from GREY'S ANATOMY. so i was watching today and it was a bunch of horse shit about romeo and juliet and love and shit... and then DEATH being involved and... well its sorta from this old couple on the show that was totally in love. wifey was sick and having her gullbladder removed. they found cancer, and inevitably discovered she had appx. 4-6 months to live. told hubby boy about it, and he said DO NOT TELL WIFEY. bc he didnt want her last months on earth to be in a hospital or to be in fear of the inevitable, blah blah blah. he was in love. so then... the doctor finally tells old wifey the sitch, bc its a doctor-patient-gotta-do-it sorta thing. so wifey is like "did you tell my hubby boy" bc she doesnt want him to know. bc she doesnt want him to be hurt or fear losing her. basically your overall ridiculous old folks way too in love with each other after 60 years makes you wanna puke and smile and cry and be old all at the same time kinda situation.
so it got me thinking about this inevitable DEATH. (the thought popped back in my mind in my feminist reading from the above rant -- inevitably we will all die sort of talk). and im like, first, EEEEPP!! (bc though i may not admit it sometimes, im scared to death of dying and death-like situations), and second, im like, holy fucking shit dude.
its the total truth. like i try not to think about it, bc it just freaks me out. but thats how all of our lives are going to end. whether we're billionaires or serial rapists or mother-teresa-like-saints, we will all one day meet the exact same fate. DEATH.
so it lead me to thinking about vices. YES VICES. like smoking, drinking, drugs, promiscuity, gluttony, etc, etc, whatever other vices you can think of. whats the point? so what if theyre vices? we're all gonna die someday anyway, theres no stopping it. there's postponing it a little longer (and with the advent of new found medical sciences people are living way longer than they should be and literally will lose thier mind before they lose their bodily functions). i mean, when someone tells me (in reference to my cigarettes) "those things will kill you" the old cliche answer is so true "life will kill you" b/c inevitably IT FUCKING WILL.
none of us are safe. and while, yes, understand great trajedies are just such, in all technicallity, they dont really matter-- bc all that happened was the fucking inevitable. yeah im disgustingly morbid, and unsympathetic, and some might even say dehumanized, and most definetly pessismistic. but so much bad shit happens in this world (i know thats a quote from some movie but im too tired to remember which one right now, DAMNIT) why does anything even fucking matter anymore?
what the hell is a bachelor's degree going to do for me? allow me to get my masters, to get a good paying job, to work for the rest of my life til i die of lung cancer from my smokes or some other form of hereditary cancer or heart disease from my family or who knows what else i could die of? its all pointless, life is fucking pointless and none of it makes any sense.
oooohh which brings me to another point which i had forgotten about previously but just remembered... if youve ever seen "I Heart Huckabees" you know what im talking about -- the existentialists -- the whole everything is connected and not connected thing -- where you can see the universe coming apart in little dots and bigger dots. well if you ever just sit and stare at something for awhile -- even just the air and the background of whats in front of you, just REALLY stare -- and think about it, and think about the dots and what reality is, and what is really in front of you -- you can kinda see the world coming apart and the little pieces that fit together like the pixels on a computer screen.
its really weird.
and i realize ive probably just scared anyone who's reading this, or made them think im on drugs, which i am certainly not for i gave them up over a year ago (except my devoted nicotine and the occasiaonl over indulgence in alcohol).
whatever... i think im going crazy with all these thoughts, but they are there. and they should be heard. bc i think other people should think about shit like this. not so they can be sad and depressed and pessimistic. just so that they can take a gander at another way of looking at things ...
everything is inevitable -- especially death. we all just have to accept that i guess.