A comment to zac
This is to zac, a comment on his most recent entry that wouldnt fit for it was too big, here is to you zac.
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First of all, I have to say Timothy 1 4:12 is the verse I live by, and is my favorite in the bible and has been for a long time.
So zac, the greatest thing about all of this...is that by one person our age being able to understand and express how he feels about things-you let so many other people realize what they are feeling. Most people our age havnt began to come to the level to where they can understand the feelings coming out of them to the point that they can truly express it. If you have that ability right now, its a great thing. In all essence, you are experiencing the same thing as everyone else at this age. The difference between you and the other people we associate with is that you are questioning it. Why is it like this, Why do things have to happen this way. With all the question you ask, you answer questions for all the other people. I used to do this sort of thing, but i've gotten lazy.I wasnt even going to comment, but im bored. As with the older people look down on us and tell us we know nothing of love. Know one knows anything of love until love gets to know them. You can be older and still know not a thing about it because it hasnt happened to you. I believe at our age there is the possibility to be in love, but not to understand it enough to see what it truly is, but there is so much convincing ourselves of our feelings for these people with our hormones and logic that our love is usually fake. People will claim they truly love someone at our age, but a week after they break up they pretend the love is gone. If you really loved someone, your feeling would not dissapate because of the words of breaking up. Even if they do something to upset you and something against you - real love is not broken by those things. I don't tell someone I love them until I mean it, and I've never said it without meaning it in my entire life. You and jennifer broke up, but if you think you really loved her, even after this you will love her for sometime. Love and in love of course are different things, and although I have not been in love, I can tell you this about love - that it is not a feeling that comes and goes, it takes alot of time. About your studying people. Thats something that is a thing I havnt known many people to do. You are thinker, a wonderer. You want to know how these things work. I'm the same way. If i'm at a party, and i'm sitting reclused from everyone else away, it's because im watching all of you. It may sound wierd to some people, but for me I like to know and understand as much as possible and how people work. Its amazing how people are and why they do the things they do. The wonderful thing about people our age is they do things without any reason but they think it is right. We make decisions based on nothing and expect things to go right. With who we like, we think that it is happenstance that things go wrong when we base everything on pure feelings, without logic. I broke up with grace before summer because I thought maybe my feelings towards her and everyone else were changing. They were, but not the way exactly I thought they are. I did things without thinking things out. I can dish out advice but make the same mistakes. I wouldnt die for anyone, but I would risk my life for everyone. All relationships at this age end badly, we have to realize that. You arent going to stay with them for the rest of your life, so they have to end, and 90% of the time when that happens its never easy. Its a basic fact of our young life. I realized this awhile ago and its a bummer. But you have to rationalize. Zac were all the good times with jennifer worth the pain at the end, I know in all my relationships it has been. I've been burned before but it was all worth it. These things at our age are things we'll never fully understand but we can try hard as hell to prepare ourselves for the things that come. One of the reasons I broke up with grace was that I was getting to into the relationship. I went on the boat the weekend before it and realized that it was the most fun I had had in a long ass time without her. I didnt know if it was a bad thing but I knew i didn't want it to be like that. The being special thing- everyone is special and unique just like everyone else. The sad thing is that mostly none of our live really matter in the big picture, so dont worry if you fuck up too bad because it doesnt effect too much. You can always move somewhere else and start all over. The whole thing with being in the "in" group is alot of bs. The "in" group are usually the people who are enveloped by all the things we hate. Drama and lethal relationships. The "in" group are a bunch of people who think certain things, but know nothing of most things. You can get caught up with things pretty fast in the "in" group. I hate labels more than anything, but without them we would have nothing. I like how you look at dating tips, and how you actually admit it. Reading parenting books is cool, but if you want to know why we do the things we do now, pick up some child pshyc books about adolescents and maturing. They describe everything most of us think no one understands about us. I've read so many books about that i will probably be something in that field when i grow up. A smarter Dr.Phil. You not a selfish person if your sharing all these things with people. If everyone our age just stayed ignorant to it all you could have alot more fun in life. Like me.
for you, "be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are, when you realize nothing is lacking, the world is your"
loa-tzu
and in my style two songs.
Gary Jules-Mad world. about everything. what i took from what you wrote. a bit of advice i guess.
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world
Straylight Run-A slow descent. this song described how i felt about a lot of things for a long time. How last year i was normal, this year i was stuco president and mr gjh. and how sick i am of all of it.
i'm tired
cynical and broken, but wiser
heavy with a sense of resentment
but i used to be so much different
i used to have so much faith
when i started
you knew that i always meant it
i knew i could make a difference
i struggled to be heard
and then finally, one day people started listening
and i knew it
but as soon as it began it was ruined
a slow descent from unique to routine
over and over
"just do it again and this time with feeling"
the spotlight
the focus on the friends and the feelings
that made those stupid songs all worth singing
and don't you say a word
unless you're pretty sure that you want it analyzed
just remember zac, no matter what your going through theres always people who have been there before to help.
Brandon Mangan
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First of all, I have to say Timothy 1 4:12 is the verse I live by, and is my favorite in the bible and has been for a long time.
So zac, the greatest thing about all of this...is that by one person our age being able to understand and express how he feels about things-you let so many other people realize what they are feeling. Most people our age havnt began to come to the level to where they can understand the feelings coming out of them to the point that they can truly express it. If you have that ability right now, its a great thing. In all essence, you are experiencing the same thing as everyone else at this age. The difference between you and the other people we associate with is that you are questioning it. Why is it like this, Why do things have to happen this way. With all the question you ask, you answer questions for all the other people. I used to do this sort of thing, but i've gotten lazy.I wasnt even going to comment, but im bored. As with the older people look down on us and tell us we know nothing of love. Know one knows anything of love until love gets to know them. You can be older and still know not a thing about it because it hasnt happened to you. I believe at our age there is the possibility to be in love, but not to understand it enough to see what it truly is, but there is so much convincing ourselves of our feelings for these people with our hormones and logic that our love is usually fake. People will claim they truly love someone at our age, but a week after they break up they pretend the love is gone. If you really loved someone, your feeling would not dissapate because of the words of breaking up. Even if they do something to upset you and something against you - real love is not broken by those things. I don't tell someone I love them until I mean it, and I've never said it without meaning it in my entire life. You and jennifer broke up, but if you think you really loved her, even after this you will love her for sometime. Love and in love of course are different things, and although I have not been in love, I can tell you this about love - that it is not a feeling that comes and goes, it takes alot of time. About your studying people. Thats something that is a thing I havnt known many people to do. You are thinker, a wonderer. You want to know how these things work. I'm the same way. If i'm at a party, and i'm sitting reclused from everyone else away, it's because im watching all of you. It may sound wierd to some people, but for me I like to know and understand as much as possible and how people work. Its amazing how people are and why they do the things they do. The wonderful thing about people our age is they do things without any reason but they think it is right. We make decisions based on nothing and expect things to go right. With who we like, we think that it is happenstance that things go wrong when we base everything on pure feelings, without logic. I broke up with grace before summer because I thought maybe my feelings towards her and everyone else were changing. They were, but not the way exactly I thought they are. I did things without thinking things out. I can dish out advice but make the same mistakes. I wouldnt die for anyone, but I would risk my life for everyone. All relationships at this age end badly, we have to realize that. You arent going to stay with them for the rest of your life, so they have to end, and 90% of the time when that happens its never easy. Its a basic fact of our young life. I realized this awhile ago and its a bummer. But you have to rationalize. Zac were all the good times with jennifer worth the pain at the end, I know in all my relationships it has been. I've been burned before but it was all worth it. These things at our age are things we'll never fully understand but we can try hard as hell to prepare ourselves for the things that come. One of the reasons I broke up with grace was that I was getting to into the relationship. I went on the boat the weekend before it and realized that it was the most fun I had had in a long ass time without her. I didnt know if it was a bad thing but I knew i didn't want it to be like that. The being special thing- everyone is special and unique just like everyone else. The sad thing is that mostly none of our live really matter in the big picture, so dont worry if you fuck up too bad because it doesnt effect too much. You can always move somewhere else and start all over. The whole thing with being in the "in" group is alot of bs. The "in" group are usually the people who are enveloped by all the things we hate. Drama and lethal relationships. The "in" group are a bunch of people who think certain things, but know nothing of most things. You can get caught up with things pretty fast in the "in" group. I hate labels more than anything, but without them we would have nothing. I like how you look at dating tips, and how you actually admit it. Reading parenting books is cool, but if you want to know why we do the things we do now, pick up some child pshyc books about adolescents and maturing. They describe everything most of us think no one understands about us. I've read so many books about that i will probably be something in that field when i grow up. A smarter Dr.Phil. You not a selfish person if your sharing all these things with people. If everyone our age just stayed ignorant to it all you could have alot more fun in life. Like me.
for you, "be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are, when you realize nothing is lacking, the world is your"
loa-tzu
and in my style two songs.
Gary Jules-Mad world. about everything. what i took from what you wrote. a bit of advice i guess.
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world
Straylight Run-A slow descent. this song described how i felt about a lot of things for a long time. How last year i was normal, this year i was stuco president and mr gjh. and how sick i am of all of it.
i'm tired
cynical and broken, but wiser
heavy with a sense of resentment
but i used to be so much different
i used to have so much faith
when i started
you knew that i always meant it
i knew i could make a difference
i struggled to be heard
and then finally, one day people started listening
and i knew it
but as soon as it began it was ruined
a slow descent from unique to routine
over and over
"just do it again and this time with feeling"
the spotlight
the focus on the friends and the feelings
that made those stupid songs all worth singing
and don't you say a word
unless you're pretty sure that you want it analyzed
just remember zac, no matter what your going through theres always people who have been there before to help.
Brandon Mangan