Only Him can Chase the Loneliness Away [GRI - OneShot]
Seung Ri sighed heavily as he lay down on the bed. Turning around he found the space beside him empty and cold. His scent no longer lingered on the sheets, as he no longer paid him any attention. However, that didn’t stop him from longing for him. The loneliness he was feeling when being left behind, alone.
He didn’t know how it happened. They were together. They were happy. Then something happened, the whole deal with the job. Kwon Ji Yong, the leader of Big Bang, not only did he rap, sing and dance. He could compose the most fantastic songs and write the most beautiful lyrics. Heck, he even helped producing 2ne1.
Both of them have been too busy with their own schedule to be able to stay together more than few hours a week. Travelling from Japan and South Korea didn’t help either. This couldn’t be the end of their relationship, could it? ‘No,’ he mentally slapped himself. Negative thoughts led to negative things. It was probably just a pace. They were tired and with their goal to keep the relationship a secret, didn’t help. Together with the schedule it prolonged the time they had to be apart.
It was amazingly, how the two of them weren’t in the same room, when they were the only one home at the moment and would be for the whole day and most of the night. Top, Taeyang and Daesung have all separate schedules, which would keep them busy for a long time. It was possibly one of the few times they could be alone and enjoy it.
“Ok, Seung Ri, you need to stop sulking and cheer Ji Yong hyung on.” He told himself raising his fits and jumped out of bed nearly tripping. Slowly and gently he sneaked across the living room towards his lover’s bedroom. He was banned from the room, Ji Yong said- more yelled, that he had work to do.
Seung Ri didn’t make a sound when he reached the door. Silently, he tried to sharpen his hearing to hear what Ji Yong was doing on the other side. Pressing his ear against the door he could hear faint sound of scribbling and growling. It was a bad habit Ji Yong had. He would always growl and ruffle his hair in annoyance, because he couldn’t combine the words like he wanted. Whenever that happened he would be by his side, wrapping his arms around him and encourage him, giving him his fullest support. However, this time he wasn’t allowed to so he needed to support him in another way. With a satisfied grin he left the apartment with a little note.
~~GRI~~
After leaving for a few hours to get all the stuff he needed, he was surprised to see that everything was left exactly like it was before he went out. He frowned with the thought that his lover hasn’t left the room at all today, but had to shrug it off with the thought that he was going make this day as special as possible. Smiling Seung Ri took everything he bought into the kitchen and started to work out his magic.
He has been working nonstop and nothing has disturbed him. With everything finished on the table he has decorated for two. Clapping his hands together he took a deep breath before he found the way to the sacred bedroom. Ji Yong hated to be disturbed but he hasn’t been out of his room and Seung Ri really needed to change that. Taking a few more breath he knocked and opened the door.
“Ji Yong.” He called out softly and the sight that met shocked him. The room was barely lit. The only light came from the tiny light bulb hanging above Ji Yong’s head. Still even with the tiny light aiding him, he could still see that Ji Yong was wary and tired. The bags around his eyes were more prominent than his own, and he was known as the panda boy.
“Just leave, Seung Ri!” If Seung Ri didn’t catch the distaste when looking at him, his voice completely gave away his condition. He sounded awful; he could hear the tiredness clinging loudly in his voice and once again Seung Ri found himself feeling more lonely than ever. His love was sitting right before him, but it could might as well be thousands miles between.
“Come on, hyung. You need to get something in you, it’s late and you haven’t eaten anything.” What happened to the times when Ji Yong was the one dragging him out to eat or make the most special meal for him only?
“Seung Ri, please just leave me alone.” Ji Yong hasn’t looked at him since he entered the room, before now. His eyes were pleading and Seung Ri couldn’t help but think that, that sentence had a double meaning.
“Y-You don’t l-love me anymore… do you?” Seung Ri muttered as tears filled his eyes and painted his cheeks. Ji Yong didn’t even have a second to comprehend what Seung Ri said, before he bolted out of the room slamming the door behind him.
~~GRI~~
“NO!! I DO LOVE YOU!” Cursing Ji Yong rose and made his way to the door. Just great, if the problem he was having involving his concert and the upcoming concert weren’t enough. The pile of problems just grew.
Walking past the kitchen Ji Yong could feel the guilt slowly swallowing him up. Small lights lit up the kitchen dimly and made a comforting and romantic atmosphere. The meals on the table were all his favorites, even the meals Seung Ri didn’t like. ‘Damn it!’ He wanted to bang his head into the wall for his stupidity.
Making his way to Seung Ri’s room, he could hear he heartbreaking sobs that cried louder as he was nearing the door. Slowly he opened the door. Seung Ri was sitting on his bed, arms wrapped around his knees, which were pulled as close as possible against his body. Tears scrolled down his cheeks. The confident Seung Ri looked so vulnerable now and it stabbed Ji Yong’s heart. It was his fault.
“Ri,” He called out softly and walked closer towards his broken lover. It hurt when Seung Ri flinched away from him. However, he didn’t give up and took Seung Ri in his arms. He struggled for a while trying to hit him, and Ji Yong took it all. At last Seung Ri stopped but he didn’t hug him back.
“Ri, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it that way.” Ji Yong stopped and waited for a respond, but it didn’t come. He cupped Seung Ri’s face and looked him directly into his eyes. “I. Love. You.” He knew he had to make each word count. “The only one I will love is only you. I’m sorry, these few weeks have set me off and I’ve been a jerk. But please, don’t doubt my love for you.” Neither of them broke the gaze, Seung Ri could see the sincerity in his eyes.
“It was lonely, you know…” Seung Ri finally spoke and shifted his gaze. “It feels like you left, didn’t want or need me the way I do about you-“ Ji Yong didn’t let him finish. He pressed his lips against him gently at first before pouring his feelings into the kiss. The despair he felt because of his works, because he thought he has drove Seung Ri away. Seung Ri responded in the same manner. Allowing Ji Yong to chase the loneliness away.
“I’m sorry. I love you. Don’t be mad at me?” Breaking away from the kiss, Ji Yong trailed down Seung Ri’s neck.
“Silly, I’m not mad, but I don’t want you to separate yourself from me again. Let me help you.” His pleading voice drove Ji Yong’s attention back to Seung Ri’s face. He thanked God for blessing him with Seung Ri, who would always forgive him.
“I’ll make up for you I promise.” He whispered in his ears before he started giving him butterfly kisses all over his face, making Seung Ri giggle.
“How?” His voice held all his emotions. The amusement, the expectation and most importantly his eyes was pleading for something. Did he…
“W-well I-“ He stuttered but Seung Ri pressed himself against him before he could finished and left him shocked.
“Love me~” Seung Ri whispered seducing and Ji Yong of course tried to stop himself from taking him right there and then. With the little restriction he had, Ji Yong asked nervously.
“What about the food?” Seung Ri rolled his eyes.
“Babo, that’s why we have a stove. I understand though, if you don’t want to do it.” He pulled away, but soon found himself falling against Ji Yong as he was dragged down. Seung Ri smirked.
~~GRI~~
I don't know if the end suggested it like I wanted it to, but after this was going to be a smut part. I can't write smut, so my unni haelin is going to write it. She will post it when she is finished ;P I hope you guys enjoyed this, and I'm sorry for not posting for so long.
He didn’t know how it happened. They were together. They were happy. Then something happened, the whole deal with the job. Kwon Ji Yong, the leader of Big Bang, not only did he rap, sing and dance. He could compose the most fantastic songs and write the most beautiful lyrics. Heck, he even helped producing 2ne1.
Both of them have been too busy with their own schedule to be able to stay together more than few hours a week. Travelling from Japan and South Korea didn’t help either. This couldn’t be the end of their relationship, could it? ‘No,’ he mentally slapped himself. Negative thoughts led to negative things. It was probably just a pace. They were tired and with their goal to keep the relationship a secret, didn’t help. Together with the schedule it prolonged the time they had to be apart.
It was amazingly, how the two of them weren’t in the same room, when they were the only one home at the moment and would be for the whole day and most of the night. Top, Taeyang and Daesung have all separate schedules, which would keep them busy for a long time. It was possibly one of the few times they could be alone and enjoy it.
“Ok, Seung Ri, you need to stop sulking and cheer Ji Yong hyung on.” He told himself raising his fits and jumped out of bed nearly tripping. Slowly and gently he sneaked across the living room towards his lover’s bedroom. He was banned from the room, Ji Yong said- more yelled, that he had work to do.
Seung Ri didn’t make a sound when he reached the door. Silently, he tried to sharpen his hearing to hear what Ji Yong was doing on the other side. Pressing his ear against the door he could hear faint sound of scribbling and growling. It was a bad habit Ji Yong had. He would always growl and ruffle his hair in annoyance, because he couldn’t combine the words like he wanted. Whenever that happened he would be by his side, wrapping his arms around him and encourage him, giving him his fullest support. However, this time he wasn’t allowed to so he needed to support him in another way. With a satisfied grin he left the apartment with a little note.
~~GRI~~
After leaving for a few hours to get all the stuff he needed, he was surprised to see that everything was left exactly like it was before he went out. He frowned with the thought that his lover hasn’t left the room at all today, but had to shrug it off with the thought that he was going make this day as special as possible. Smiling Seung Ri took everything he bought into the kitchen and started to work out his magic.
He has been working nonstop and nothing has disturbed him. With everything finished on the table he has decorated for two. Clapping his hands together he took a deep breath before he found the way to the sacred bedroom. Ji Yong hated to be disturbed but he hasn’t been out of his room and Seung Ri really needed to change that. Taking a few more breath he knocked and opened the door.
“Ji Yong.” He called out softly and the sight that met shocked him. The room was barely lit. The only light came from the tiny light bulb hanging above Ji Yong’s head. Still even with the tiny light aiding him, he could still see that Ji Yong was wary and tired. The bags around his eyes were more prominent than his own, and he was known as the panda boy.
“Just leave, Seung Ri!” If Seung Ri didn’t catch the distaste when looking at him, his voice completely gave away his condition. He sounded awful; he could hear the tiredness clinging loudly in his voice and once again Seung Ri found himself feeling more lonely than ever. His love was sitting right before him, but it could might as well be thousands miles between.
“Come on, hyung. You need to get something in you, it’s late and you haven’t eaten anything.” What happened to the times when Ji Yong was the one dragging him out to eat or make the most special meal for him only?
“Seung Ri, please just leave me alone.” Ji Yong hasn’t looked at him since he entered the room, before now. His eyes were pleading and Seung Ri couldn’t help but think that, that sentence had a double meaning.
“Y-You don’t l-love me anymore… do you?” Seung Ri muttered as tears filled his eyes and painted his cheeks. Ji Yong didn’t even have a second to comprehend what Seung Ri said, before he bolted out of the room slamming the door behind him.
~~GRI~~
“NO!! I DO LOVE YOU!” Cursing Ji Yong rose and made his way to the door. Just great, if the problem he was having involving his concert and the upcoming concert weren’t enough. The pile of problems just grew.
Walking past the kitchen Ji Yong could feel the guilt slowly swallowing him up. Small lights lit up the kitchen dimly and made a comforting and romantic atmosphere. The meals on the table were all his favorites, even the meals Seung Ri didn’t like. ‘Damn it!’ He wanted to bang his head into the wall for his stupidity.
Making his way to Seung Ri’s room, he could hear he heartbreaking sobs that cried louder as he was nearing the door. Slowly he opened the door. Seung Ri was sitting on his bed, arms wrapped around his knees, which were pulled as close as possible against his body. Tears scrolled down his cheeks. The confident Seung Ri looked so vulnerable now and it stabbed Ji Yong’s heart. It was his fault.
“Ri,” He called out softly and walked closer towards his broken lover. It hurt when Seung Ri flinched away from him. However, he didn’t give up and took Seung Ri in his arms. He struggled for a while trying to hit him, and Ji Yong took it all. At last Seung Ri stopped but he didn’t hug him back.
“Ri, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it that way.” Ji Yong stopped and waited for a respond, but it didn’t come. He cupped Seung Ri’s face and looked him directly into his eyes. “I. Love. You.” He knew he had to make each word count. “The only one I will love is only you. I’m sorry, these few weeks have set me off and I’ve been a jerk. But please, don’t doubt my love for you.” Neither of them broke the gaze, Seung Ri could see the sincerity in his eyes.
“It was lonely, you know…” Seung Ri finally spoke and shifted his gaze. “It feels like you left, didn’t want or need me the way I do about you-“ Ji Yong didn’t let him finish. He pressed his lips against him gently at first before pouring his feelings into the kiss. The despair he felt because of his works, because he thought he has drove Seung Ri away. Seung Ri responded in the same manner. Allowing Ji Yong to chase the loneliness away.
“I’m sorry. I love you. Don’t be mad at me?” Breaking away from the kiss, Ji Yong trailed down Seung Ri’s neck.
“Silly, I’m not mad, but I don’t want you to separate yourself from me again. Let me help you.” His pleading voice drove Ji Yong’s attention back to Seung Ri’s face. He thanked God for blessing him with Seung Ri, who would always forgive him.
“I’ll make up for you I promise.” He whispered in his ears before he started giving him butterfly kisses all over his face, making Seung Ri giggle.
“How?” His voice held all his emotions. The amusement, the expectation and most importantly his eyes was pleading for something. Did he…
“W-well I-“ He stuttered but Seung Ri pressed himself against him before he could finished and left him shocked.
“Love me~” Seung Ri whispered seducing and Ji Yong of course tried to stop himself from taking him right there and then. With the little restriction he had, Ji Yong asked nervously.
“What about the food?” Seung Ri rolled his eyes.
“Babo, that’s why we have a stove. I understand though, if you don’t want to do it.” He pulled away, but soon found himself falling against Ji Yong as he was dragged down. Seung Ri smirked.
~~GRI~~
I don't know if the end suggested it like I wanted it to, but after this was going to be a smut part. I can't write smut, so my unni haelin is going to write it. She will post it when she is finished ;P I hope you guys enjoyed this, and I'm sorry for not posting for so long.