So Quiet
Strolling the calm, peaceful city streets at night is one of my favorites. When you remind yourself that you're in one of the largest cities in the nation, but at 5am, it is a ghost town. Trees are still, streets are empty. And it all feels like it is yours and yours alone.
The other night was very beautiful, and the older I grow, the harder it is to find that beauty. Which, when discovered, makes it all the more moving. A close friend and I had a nice Indian dinner, which I had never tried before, and I loved it. She was glad I loved it. And always such rich discussion- Politics, Religion, I can even get away with space talk.
We had reservations for a very cozy hookah bar after wards, which was exactly what we both wanted and needed. You have your own room walled in drapery of rich reds and purples, silent instrumental middle eastern music in the background. You can tune out the world at large and create your own world with someone else. And we did. I have such irreverent, wild, sometimes offensive and frightening ideas and thoughts, and having someone to share them with always means the world. I only have a few of such people.
We were allowed in this place for an hour and a half before our reservation was up... so we decided to go to another hookah bar. More casual, public, boisterous. TVs with middle eastern music videos, etc. I liked the change of pace. We talked, we relaxed. Posed questions to its middle eastern owner. Out of the blue, got the text from Obama about Biden at 3am- debated that for another hour. Slowly walked home around 5am. I like being with someone, or a group of people, that make me lose track of time. I like forgetting time. There exist sinful ways to accomplish that, but I find none as fulfilling as the right person whom I can lose myself in.
Last night I walked home, alone, very early. 10:30. I called one such person, I don't know why. I saw another friend with her new boyfriend tonight, and I smiled, because I was happy for them, but jealous. I wanted to share my thoughts with someone I was once very intimate with, so I called her, and rambled on like a fool for 20 minutes. But it was nice to do. Some people might say Uh Huh, Uh Huh, ditch you, toss you aside. And I love my life because I have some people that wouldn't ever do that- would never toss me aside.
The other night was very beautiful, and the older I grow, the harder it is to find that beauty. Which, when discovered, makes it all the more moving. A close friend and I had a nice Indian dinner, which I had never tried before, and I loved it. She was glad I loved it. And always such rich discussion- Politics, Religion, I can even get away with space talk.
We had reservations for a very cozy hookah bar after wards, which was exactly what we both wanted and needed. You have your own room walled in drapery of rich reds and purples, silent instrumental middle eastern music in the background. You can tune out the world at large and create your own world with someone else. And we did. I have such irreverent, wild, sometimes offensive and frightening ideas and thoughts, and having someone to share them with always means the world. I only have a few of such people.
We were allowed in this place for an hour and a half before our reservation was up... so we decided to go to another hookah bar. More casual, public, boisterous. TVs with middle eastern music videos, etc. I liked the change of pace. We talked, we relaxed. Posed questions to its middle eastern owner. Out of the blue, got the text from Obama about Biden at 3am- debated that for another hour. Slowly walked home around 5am. I like being with someone, or a group of people, that make me lose track of time. I like forgetting time. There exist sinful ways to accomplish that, but I find none as fulfilling as the right person whom I can lose myself in.
Last night I walked home, alone, very early. 10:30. I called one such person, I don't know why. I saw another friend with her new boyfriend tonight, and I smiled, because I was happy for them, but jealous. I wanted to share my thoughts with someone I was once very intimate with, so I called her, and rambled on like a fool for 20 minutes. But it was nice to do. Some people might say Uh Huh, Uh Huh, ditch you, toss you aside. And I love my life because I have some people that wouldn't ever do that- would never toss me aside.