IDK my bff life..
So I'm moving back home with my dad & step-monster after being on my own for 7 years.. so what?... Kill me now.
You might ask what caused me to return home after such a long time. Well I'm broke, got laid off & have no prospects for a fulfilling future. About to be 26.. yea, I know I'm old so keep the comments to yourself.. but aside from getting older, I'm no better off than I was when I graduated high school. Sure I have work experience but when it comes down to it I haven't accomplished anything. Every year on my birthday or at New Years, I use that time to reflect. Assess my life & the complete lack progress.
Let me just say, I don't think I'm a failure. For the life I was dealt, I think I did fairly well. All the people I went to school with are either married, divorced, have kids or all 3. I don't count that as success. Not to say that they are failures either.. my point is that for the life I chose I did well but now I want more. I deserve more, but I can't get it. At least not yet.
So next month I'm moving home to live with my dad & go back to school. Seems stupid to go back after 7 years.. feels weird, but I can't help that. I don't think I would have survived if I had gone to school right out of high school. I was immature, pissed off & a little too into partying all night that I would have flunked out the first semester. Am I mature now? Maybe not mature, but I have more life experience & an idea of what's important that I didn't have then. Though moving away from all my friends & my home for the better part of a decade feels like a huge step back for me, I think it's the smart thing to do. I won't have to worry about bills & rent while I go to school so all the money I make I can save for moving to LA.
LA is where I want to be. It's one of the top cities to live in for people interested in a career in music. Which I am. I love music. Everything about it. Especially Kpop. Right now LA is the place to be for Kpop. When stars from Korea come to the US they want to go to NY & LA. Even though I love NY, I could never live there. LA is so much more laid back. NY is too fast paced for me. While I love to visit I couldn't work there.. unless I lived upstate NY but even then I would be traveling to LA too much so it just makes sense to start a life there.
Which career in Music I am going to choose, I haven't decided yet. There are so many different aspects to the music industry that I'm just going to have to try some out & figure out what fits. Which is apparently what school is all about but I hate wasting time. That is one of my biggest pet peeves. I don't want to spend time in a career that's not right for me so it's going to be a.challenge to sit back & let things play out.
So to sum this all up, I'm moving yet again. Whether I will accomplish my goal of getting a BA in Music Business Management with a Minor in Korean Language & literature, I can't really say but I'm gonna try.
Oh, & to those that thought this might be the next chapter of sarange, sorry. I'm still working on that.. well avoiding is probably a better word but oh well. I'll get it done soon. With so much time on my hands you would think it would be done by now but I have no desire to write right now. I'll try to get it done over the holiday. Hope everyone have a good Christmas.. or whatever they celebrate.
You might ask what caused me to return home after such a long time. Well I'm broke, got laid off & have no prospects for a fulfilling future. About to be 26.. yea, I know I'm old so keep the comments to yourself.. but aside from getting older, I'm no better off than I was when I graduated high school. Sure I have work experience but when it comes down to it I haven't accomplished anything. Every year on my birthday or at New Years, I use that time to reflect. Assess my life & the complete lack progress.
Let me just say, I don't think I'm a failure. For the life I was dealt, I think I did fairly well. All the people I went to school with are either married, divorced, have kids or all 3. I don't count that as success. Not to say that they are failures either.. my point is that for the life I chose I did well but now I want more. I deserve more, but I can't get it. At least not yet.
So next month I'm moving home to live with my dad & go back to school. Seems stupid to go back after 7 years.. feels weird, but I can't help that. I don't think I would have survived if I had gone to school right out of high school. I was immature, pissed off & a little too into partying all night that I would have flunked out the first semester. Am I mature now? Maybe not mature, but I have more life experience & an idea of what's important that I didn't have then. Though moving away from all my friends & my home for the better part of a decade feels like a huge step back for me, I think it's the smart thing to do. I won't have to worry about bills & rent while I go to school so all the money I make I can save for moving to LA.
LA is where I want to be. It's one of the top cities to live in for people interested in a career in music. Which I am. I love music. Everything about it. Especially Kpop. Right now LA is the place to be for Kpop. When stars from Korea come to the US they want to go to NY & LA. Even though I love NY, I could never live there. LA is so much more laid back. NY is too fast paced for me. While I love to visit I couldn't work there.. unless I lived upstate NY but even then I would be traveling to LA too much so it just makes sense to start a life there.
Which career in Music I am going to choose, I haven't decided yet. There are so many different aspects to the music industry that I'm just going to have to try some out & figure out what fits. Which is apparently what school is all about but I hate wasting time. That is one of my biggest pet peeves. I don't want to spend time in a career that's not right for me so it's going to be a.challenge to sit back & let things play out.
So to sum this all up, I'm moving yet again. Whether I will accomplish my goal of getting a BA in Music Business Management with a Minor in Korean Language & literature, I can't really say but I'm gonna try.
Oh, & to those that thought this might be the next chapter of sarange, sorry. I'm still working on that.. well avoiding is probably a better word but oh well. I'll get it done soon. With so much time on my hands you would think it would be done by now but I have no desire to write right now. I'll try to get it done over the holiday. Hope everyone have a good Christmas.. or whatever they celebrate.