update on granny..
My grandma was doing okay, so they took her out of the hospital about 2 weeks ago. Come to find out last night, they put her in a fucking nursing home which totally pisses me off! She was staying at my moms house and then at my aunts house every now and then. Fuck that shit, ppl. who work in nursing homes don't give much attention to any of the ppl in there. My aunt Grandy who passed away a yr ago was in one. Everytime I went to see her she was always by herself a lone in her room, lonely and looked so depressed. The ppl. who work there just make sure they're clean. They don't really associate with any of them. My Grandma needs us to be here for her and for them just to turn around and do this is just a slap in the face to her. I know its not something she wants to do. She sits up in the middle of the night and is scared of whats going to happen to her and being a lone won't help. Hospice was at my moms to help her there and supposevly a nursing home is so much better. Everybody on my mom side are a bunch of hillbillies from the south and when it comes to decision making they only think of whats better for themselves not for the person it involves. She has been in this nursing home the past week in a half and now she is back in the hospital at St. Johns again. Something tells me she isn't doing good. The doctors keep telling us that she doesn't have too much longer and to spend as much time with her as you can, well how the hell am I supposed to do that when visiting hours at the nursing home closes at 8 and thats about the time I get out of class?! Even at the hospital, at a certain time there is only allowed to be 2 ppl in the room within like I believe 9 at night till 7 in the morning.. I really hope that she doesn't have to keep goin in and out of the hospital, she is so weak and she doesn't have the energy to keep doing this. She has been fighting this for awhile and shes starting to give up and immune system is just getting lower, and lower. I don't know what else to do. I keep thinking you know she will be okay but then at the same time I know it won't get better she will just end up back in the hospital and who knows how much longer she has left. A few weeks after my 19th birthday my grandma, aunt, cousins and sister wanted to make plans to go up to Canada to the casino. She loves to gamble and it would really mean a lot to me if that actuallly ended up happening. It would be the greatest b.day present I could ever recieve. Just being able to spend time with my grandma with her doing something she enjoys doing and not having to think about her being so ill. Maybe it could be just like the old times.. I really hope she ends up pulling through this for awhile but in the mean time I don't want her suffering!!