Sick of being the baby
So, I'm not mad at anyone in particular, just the situation. I suppose this comes with the territory of not having any friends my own age. Not that usually mind, they're a lot more fun and i generally have more in common with them. It's things like birthdays and free nights that are getting me. The reason for me feeling like a baby again? Drinking, or more correctly put, my inability to drink at bars. Pretty much everyone knows my constant frustration with it but it seems to be getting more frequent. People who should know my age keep inviting me out to go drinking for birthdays or after work and such forgetting that I am under aged. The most popular answer to them forgetting is "Oh, but you seem so much more mature than your age, I keep forgetting how old you are." This is increasingly infuriating. Today I got another dose of this frustration after hearing of Thomas's Friday plans for this week. Due to some work scheduling issues we're not able to see each other this weekend. This means that we need to find some way to entertain ourselves. I have no plans and had hoped to have some by now.
I don't blame him for going out to bars like a normal 20-something. Its the fact that I can't do that by myself or with him that frustrates me. I would like to go out and have a drink or two with my girl friends, or go see shows that are 21+, perhaps even go to a club. But no. I had to make friends with people who are at least two-three years older than me. I am always doomed to be the baby of the group. I really wish I knew anyone in my age group that I actually enjoyed hanging out with. Maybe it would be less frustrating.
I'm putting way too much on the going out drinking thing. By the time I'm actually able to go out and drink in public like a normal person most of my friends probably won't feel like doing it anyways. I may not feel like it anymore since I've hyped it up too much. I don't expect anything grand from it anymore, its just causing me more stress than its probably worth. And now I sound like a whiny baby so I'm gonna end this little tirade. Sorry if I sounded resentful to my older friends. I didn't mean to sound like I am.
I don't blame him for going out to bars like a normal 20-something. Its the fact that I can't do that by myself or with him that frustrates me. I would like to go out and have a drink or two with my girl friends, or go see shows that are 21+, perhaps even go to a club. But no. I had to make friends with people who are at least two-three years older than me. I am always doomed to be the baby of the group. I really wish I knew anyone in my age group that I actually enjoyed hanging out with. Maybe it would be less frustrating.
I'm putting way too much on the going out drinking thing. By the time I'm actually able to go out and drink in public like a normal person most of my friends probably won't feel like doing it anyways. I may not feel like it anymore since I've hyped it up too much. I don't expect anything grand from it anymore, its just causing me more stress than its probably worth. And now I sound like a whiny baby so I'm gonna end this little tirade. Sorry if I sounded resentful to my older friends. I didn't mean to sound like I am.