Concerning human beings?
If we as human beings have less of an understanding about life, of why people do the things they do, and that we do not do to others as we would want them to do, then why even bother doing anything at all? Just something that was rambling into my brain. I went today to the beach, it was a wonderful idea, it was beautiful, i love the beach, the way the sound of the water softly rushes up to the shore. the seaguls squall, chasing after food people throw out to them. The way the clouds gently pass the time of day. When i was taking photo's of all of this, and enjoying the company of my mate, i had someone remark: "What is she taking a picture of?" As if i was taking one of her, does it matter what i'm taking a picture of, i mean i'm taking it of the lake and everything surrounding it, isn't it obvious? Is she oblivious? i mean come on, please! Well, I thought i should complain about that for a moment or two. It is my understanding that I myself may have fell pray to ignorance at one time or another, And though i might have been rude to a few guys that may have turned out to be not so bad, i think about that often, but i don't regrete leaving them there in the dust. I am glad that they too choose not to be involved with me, for which i may have never met the one i will be with for the rest of my life. I feel that this is a good thing, this is something that was to be, i mean i have a house, I work, i go to school, i feel as if i have the riches beyond riches, i'm completely satisfied with everything that has happened to me so far. I met someone who has changed my life dramatically, he knew the right words to say to me, he knew how to help me, showed me that what i was doing was wrong in some ways and that i needed to open up, it took awhile but it happened, and i am so extremly gratified for myself, and for him. I helped him too, i gave him a part of him that he needed. It has been a wonderful three years. I have never had a dull moment with charles, its been great!
I must say though, if by chance those two people whom i may have so ignorantly teased or was rude in anyway, i'm sorry if i had hurt you or angered you. It of course is only feminen nature to want to be friends and only friends again, but for the right, if not then oh well, its only life. I greatly appreciate your help in helping me how to be a better person, I feel that when i hurt, anger, or otherwise misstreate those i hold dear to my heart, then i only hurt myself; and this valuable lesson or point that i'm trying to make, is that we should always do things catiously and never throw things to the wind with out checking our life first. I may have lost some valuable friends, but those who have stucked to me the most i thank, and those who havn't please forgive me. I thank the time i have shared in this life, and i hope for many more later on. Thank you all, if there was or is anything i could ever do for anyone else, i would in a heart beat, not to recieve friendship, but only to help myself understand myself and those around me... see i know not everyone is mad, just scared, and they go through hard times, I can understand that, and i know there are those who hide behind a smile who die inside trying to cover up some deep dark secret that is tormenting them. I know that i too, have had my share of hate, despise, ingnorance and disloyal trust in others, but now i don't; i don't know how it changed but i know i like myself better now then i was three years ago. Good luck to others whose road my end abruptly or who feel out of life, there is hope, it always get's worse before it gets better. Love what God, or whoever you believe has given you, it may just help you, think of the postive and get ride of the negative. love you all. mandy
I must say though, if by chance those two people whom i may have so ignorantly teased or was rude in anyway, i'm sorry if i had hurt you or angered you. It of course is only feminen nature to want to be friends and only friends again, but for the right, if not then oh well, its only life. I greatly appreciate your help in helping me how to be a better person, I feel that when i hurt, anger, or otherwise misstreate those i hold dear to my heart, then i only hurt myself; and this valuable lesson or point that i'm trying to make, is that we should always do things catiously and never throw things to the wind with out checking our life first. I may have lost some valuable friends, but those who have stucked to me the most i thank, and those who havn't please forgive me. I thank the time i have shared in this life, and i hope for many more later on. Thank you all, if there was or is anything i could ever do for anyone else, i would in a heart beat, not to recieve friendship, but only to help myself understand myself and those around me... see i know not everyone is mad, just scared, and they go through hard times, I can understand that, and i know there are those who hide behind a smile who die inside trying to cover up some deep dark secret that is tormenting them. I know that i too, have had my share of hate, despise, ingnorance and disloyal trust in others, but now i don't; i don't know how it changed but i know i like myself better now then i was three years ago. Good luck to others whose road my end abruptly or who feel out of life, there is hope, it always get's worse before it gets better. Love what God, or whoever you believe has given you, it may just help you, think of the postive and get ride of the negative. love you all. mandy