ahhh
wow...
where to start. well there has been a lot of things going on lately that have been killing me...
my boyfriend for one is the most stressful thing to deal with, and with all the doctor appointments and work and all these mixed emotions my stomach feels like it is going to collapse. my boyfriend is my soul mate there's no doubt about that, and yeah we both have made mistakes that have hurt each other in the past but we have moved on and thats the important thing. the only thing that is killing me right now is how he is not RESPONISBILE at all!!!! not that im the most perfect person in the world but at least i can get up for work on time. he has so much potential to be the person he dreams of being but he is stuck in one place right now and can't get out of it.
yeah its fun partying and getting drunk and having fun but it can take a toll on your life easily (especially when you get evicted from your house and you got a really mad landlord)
i must be impossible for him at the moment...i was the whole reason he lost his wallet in the river with all his money in it for one...
***we were at the river and me and joey held on to a rock to catch up with the rest of our group and if it wasn't for me being so worried about spilling my SPARKS (there's another way beer can ruin your day) then i wouldn't have floated away from the group like 30 feet away and joey wouldn't have had to throw his wallet at his friend and jump in the river after me --by then i was crying because four mexicans on one tube were frantically swimming after me shouting "come here, im lonely, im lonely!"-- i feel bad that he lost all his money and then that night we drank away our worries...and thats where beer (again) ruins your night***
this party could have went down in the books...all of fountain hills cops were surrounding the house and we kept on partying all night in the dark...but the next morning we payed for it...the land lord came yelling and screaming at joey and they lost their house...
its not like they would have been living there much longer anyway...he lost all his money...but thats not the point, he didn't have that much money in the first place becasue he doesnt know how to save his money and it kills me...he cant stay at work, he cant be there on time, and he cant bring home the money to pay for bills...how can i rely on someone like that?
there are other things about him that make me know why im with him...he has the biggest heart- anyone who has met him would tell you that! he just glows...and i know that is weird to say but it is so true...he can be friends with anyone and he gives you all of his heart and at the same time he stands up for himself and for the ones he cares about around him...hes tough guy ill tell you that...but in a cuddly way...this isnt making any sense is it?
he has this innocence about him that makes me want to be a better person...i have never seen him worry about anything in his life..and thats basically the reason why i am writing this...i worry WAY too much...i dont want to be a WORRY WART but i am....
i love my boyfriend more than anything in the world...he just stresses me out and hopefully one day he will grow up and grow with me and our relationship will have more than the potential it has now and it will last for years to come.
where to start. well there has been a lot of things going on lately that have been killing me...
my boyfriend for one is the most stressful thing to deal with, and with all the doctor appointments and work and all these mixed emotions my stomach feels like it is going to collapse. my boyfriend is my soul mate there's no doubt about that, and yeah we both have made mistakes that have hurt each other in the past but we have moved on and thats the important thing. the only thing that is killing me right now is how he is not RESPONISBILE at all!!!! not that im the most perfect person in the world but at least i can get up for work on time. he has so much potential to be the person he dreams of being but he is stuck in one place right now and can't get out of it.
yeah its fun partying and getting drunk and having fun but it can take a toll on your life easily (especially when you get evicted from your house and you got a really mad landlord)
i must be impossible for him at the moment...i was the whole reason he lost his wallet in the river with all his money in it for one...
***we were at the river and me and joey held on to a rock to catch up with the rest of our group and if it wasn't for me being so worried about spilling my SPARKS (there's another way beer can ruin your day) then i wouldn't have floated away from the group like 30 feet away and joey wouldn't have had to throw his wallet at his friend and jump in the river after me --by then i was crying because four mexicans on one tube were frantically swimming after me shouting "come here, im lonely, im lonely!"-- i feel bad that he lost all his money and then that night we drank away our worries...and thats where beer (again) ruins your night***
this party could have went down in the books...all of fountain hills cops were surrounding the house and we kept on partying all night in the dark...but the next morning we payed for it...the land lord came yelling and screaming at joey and they lost their house...
its not like they would have been living there much longer anyway...he lost all his money...but thats not the point, he didn't have that much money in the first place becasue he doesnt know how to save his money and it kills me...he cant stay at work, he cant be there on time, and he cant bring home the money to pay for bills...how can i rely on someone like that?
there are other things about him that make me know why im with him...he has the biggest heart- anyone who has met him would tell you that! he just glows...and i know that is weird to say but it is so true...he can be friends with anyone and he gives you all of his heart and at the same time he stands up for himself and for the ones he cares about around him...hes tough guy ill tell you that...but in a cuddly way...this isnt making any sense is it?
he has this innocence about him that makes me want to be a better person...i have never seen him worry about anything in his life..and thats basically the reason why i am writing this...i worry WAY too much...i dont want to be a WORRY WART but i am....
i love my boyfriend more than anything in the world...he just stresses me out and hopefully one day he will grow up and grow with me and our relationship will have more than the potential it has now and it will last for years to come.