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So many things go on right now. Like...its becoming overwhelming. What is really making me depressed, tired, angry, bitchy... just... sad... is my mom. She really is playing these like mind games with me. Shes mad at me for going out with my friendswhen she said i could spend the night, then shes asking me if i wanna go shopping with her for water polo stuff.. Man i really can't take her bi polorness anymore....its really draining on school friends and now waterpolo.
today has been so .. tiring. Come home from waterpolo.... dead tired b/c i got like 3 hours of sleep b/c of a situation that happened with me and my mom....forced to come home, but then.. i dunno too hard to go into detail. I dunno. I just don't know what she expects of me anymore. ODes she expect me to solve these problems we have when she is causing them too? I don't know. ...i just need time with myself i guess to just plan out my future, my goals , and just things i gotta work on. I dunno time off from going out might be nice? I dunno.... i love my friends, they make me happy... but what also makes me happy is knowing that i'm prepared and ready for things....being organized.. being on good terms with my mom and brother.. and just plainly with my friends. its hard to balance things....
i'm totally just rameling... i have stuff on my mind. Neways... i'm gonna go get ready for bed. i have practice at 5:30 in the morning, and i'm going to try and get my cell phone back from my mom. B/c i miss it. ha ha
have a great night!