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Okay so Kelly says make a list of the positive things in my life and put it here. Okay the positive thing, I'm out of the house. Taking a break from work. I'm hanging out with an old friend of mine and catching up on each others life. I'm actually having FUN! Sure I'm worried but fuck it, the worries are out the door.
I had a lot of fun too with Jay the other night. It was nice getting to be a side of me that I haven't been in a while. I'm 20 years old, not 25. All I ever do is work. I do need fun in my life and I do need to hang out with my friends and I do need to pay attention to Ashley and I do need to call people more often. But it depresses me because .. AHHH no more negative.
There's so much that I get out of hanging out with my friends. A smile on my face is one, that's all that should matter to everyone else who knows me, and disapproves of me hanging out with James tonight. If you can't aceept that fact that he's a good friend of mine, oh well. I don't know what to tell you.
But I'm going to keep on going, and keep smiling. And no, I'm not running for your information. If I was, I'd be back in LA. Just to clear that up with another person who said I was. Because I'm not. Sure, I have my deepest secrets but that's where they'll stay. Is with me. Why? Because I don't want drama. I don't want attention. I hate it. It sucks for me. Drama sucks.
So take that, find a friend, and shove some sunshine in your life!
x3 Mandy
I had a lot of fun too with Jay the other night. It was nice getting to be a side of me that I haven't been in a while. I'm 20 years old, not 25. All I ever do is work. I do need fun in my life and I do need to hang out with my friends and I do need to pay attention to Ashley and I do need to call people more often. But it depresses me because .. AHHH no more negative.
There's so much that I get out of hanging out with my friends. A smile on my face is one, that's all that should matter to everyone else who knows me, and disapproves of me hanging out with James tonight. If you can't aceept that fact that he's a good friend of mine, oh well. I don't know what to tell you.
But I'm going to keep on going, and keep smiling. And no, I'm not running for your information. If I was, I'd be back in LA. Just to clear that up with another person who said I was. Because I'm not. Sure, I have my deepest secrets but that's where they'll stay. Is with me. Why? Because I don't want drama. I don't want attention. I hate it. It sucks for me. Drama sucks.
So take that, find a friend, and shove some sunshine in your life!
x3 Mandy