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I know maybe I've been more upset about the distance thing than usual this semester. I still don't know exactly why that is. I have a feeling that it is partly due to seeing Ashley and Garrett together everyday. Don't get me wrong, I think it's great that they get to be with each other that often. Sometimes it just serves as a reminder of the distance between me and Bruce. On the other hand, it may still have something to do with the summer. Being away for three months made me realize how badly I want to stay with Bruce rather than spend my life traveling as a photojournalist. I realized that I could never do that. Short-term domestic travel, maybe, but I really want to be able to come home to see him every night. Some people may say that I would be sacrificing my ambitions for a guy, but I'm not. My ambition is to be happy, and he makes me happier than any career every could. A career as a photojournalist may leave me with recognition, money, and knowledge, but by investing time in my relationship with Bruce, I end up with love, home, support, understanding and friendship as well as the satisfaction of providing those things for another person. I don't know about you, but I choose the latter. I could see myself being perfectly content in a number of positions, but I see myself most happy when I'm not so far away from Bruce. I think it's good that we went to different colleges. It is allowing us to live our own lives, and forces us to not be so dependent upon one another, but it's getting to the point that the distance is getting old I guess. Anyway, that was a tangent I didn't mean to go on..
My point is that although I've been reading into everything more and I've been super-sensitive about the things he's said lately, I love him more than anything. Even lately, he's been good about putting up with my over-needy-ness. Seeing him a little more often in the next few weeks will probably help too. So, if you still stalk me via this journal, thank you, Bruce, for being everything I want and need - for being you :)
(yeah, I know this entry might sound corny, but I don't care hehe)
My point is that although I've been reading into everything more and I've been super-sensitive about the things he's said lately, I love him more than anything. Even lately, he's been good about putting up with my over-needy-ness. Seeing him a little more often in the next few weeks will probably help too. So, if you still stalk me via this journal, thank you, Bruce, for being everything I want and need - for being you :)
(yeah, I know this entry might sound corny, but I don't care hehe)