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The main point of todays entry is to show that Running away solves nothing. Ive said that to alot if patients lately. Running away from places, things, people, your past. It is just a temporary solution. The past and the things your running from have the amazing ability to catch up with you. I know this from experience.
It'll be 7 years in about two weeks that Jake died. 7 years and I ran from it for so long. Maybe Im a hypocrite, chiding people for the same sins Ive committed over and over again. For years I wouldnt face it. I pushed all that I was feeling back to concentrate on school, on work, on anything else. But It comes back to haunt you. In your dreams, in the screams that escape your lips in the middle of the night. It comes back everytime you feel tears sting at your eyes when someone comes into the clinic after cutting, in the tears that actually fall at night when your all alone. It comes back when you have to face that room again, and you end up pushing people into walls to get away. Its something you have to deal with. Dont wait 6 years like me.
I miss justin. I havent seen him in days. :( Where are you? I need to talk to you. Like alot. Okay?
Mandy.
I woulda wrote more but Work calls.
It'll be 7 years in about two weeks that Jake died. 7 years and I ran from it for so long. Maybe Im a hypocrite, chiding people for the same sins Ive committed over and over again. For years I wouldnt face it. I pushed all that I was feeling back to concentrate on school, on work, on anything else. But It comes back to haunt you. In your dreams, in the screams that escape your lips in the middle of the night. It comes back everytime you feel tears sting at your eyes when someone comes into the clinic after cutting, in the tears that actually fall at night when your all alone. It comes back when you have to face that room again, and you end up pushing people into walls to get away. Its something you have to deal with. Dont wait 6 years like me.
I miss justin. I havent seen him in days. :( Where are you? I need to talk to you. Like alot. Okay?
Mandy.
I woulda wrote more but Work calls.