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This week has been like the week from hell. And its Thursday, and I want this week to be over. Sunday was horrible and people got hurt, and all I could do was watch and try to calm people down. And there was talk about people dying. About going around like nothings happened when obviously things have. And... And Monday sucked too, since I got called a whore every 5 seconds. That and having to have people pull their pants down infront of me. Its great you have penises boys, You don't have to show them to me. So will you all keep your pants on? Thanks. Then Yeasterday, there was a staff meeting, and a talk with another doctor, and a group session where conor tried to hurt himself I believe. I learned why Mark seams to be so hateful towards me, though it doesnt help that he said I killed Jake...but he apologized...but still. Even knowing that hes sorry, even knowing he was just saying it, even knowing he didnt know. Why does that hurt so bad?
Talked to Dr. Allman, seams like a real nice guy. Also talked to the other dr. Moore. Or Dr. Pink as she likes to be called I guess. I fear that neither of them got a great impression of the real me, seeing as I'm so...blah this week. So to both of you, a very much felt appology. I'll make it up to you guys I promise. :) Perhaps pudding or some other thing might be involved. Oh by the way, Noly, you are my savior...remind me to tell you that again. Pudding was just what I needed last night, like really badly cause well its the alternative to going and getting super drunk in my room. Cause unlike other people I dont go out. Cause I'm addicted to work, and stuff.
Dr. pink said something to the extent of I'll find someone to date. Maybe not here. but someone. Yeah, I learned never to fall for someone here a long time ago. Does that sound bitter....its not meant to be...Christ, I loved him. I love him. But I cant be with someone here again. Cant, or wont? Sometimes those mean the same thing.
Noly's finding me someone to talk to. And it must be bad because Mark said I should talk to someone. Since when do patients start giving advice? My fault for crying infront of him I guess. I couldn't help it. I couldnt do anything else. And I tried to not cry, tried to be strong. A momentary lapse in all the strength thats in me. :-/ I'm supposed to be the tough one, I'm supposed to be the one that can deal, I'm supposed to be the doctor. Not the patient. I'm supposed to be the one fixing other peoples heads, not having someone fix mine. But I have to. I need to not be like this, I need to be me. I need to be like I was before.
One more thing. Because this entrys just been a bunch of blubbering nonsence anyways. Noly makes a horrible pirate. And I shall execute my revenge on him soon. Show him how evil I can really be. I'm not all innocent and the paperwork doing type of girl :p Yep vin, that was showing you too.
Oh yeah. And people who hurt other people Suck. People who hurt kids suck, people who hurt my patients suck, people who hurt my friends suck. Basically if you hurt someone, you suck. So basically every one sucks atleast a little bit. Even me, cause I know I've hurt people before. Sorry if that persons been you. But yeah. Just had to get all that out. Mean people suck.
Dr. Moore
Talked to Dr. Allman, seams like a real nice guy. Also talked to the other dr. Moore. Or Dr. Pink as she likes to be called I guess. I fear that neither of them got a great impression of the real me, seeing as I'm so...blah this week. So to both of you, a very much felt appology. I'll make it up to you guys I promise. :) Perhaps pudding or some other thing might be involved. Oh by the way, Noly, you are my savior...remind me to tell you that again. Pudding was just what I needed last night, like really badly cause well its the alternative to going and getting super drunk in my room. Cause unlike other people I dont go out. Cause I'm addicted to work, and stuff.
Dr. pink said something to the extent of I'll find someone to date. Maybe not here. but someone. Yeah, I learned never to fall for someone here a long time ago. Does that sound bitter....its not meant to be...Christ, I loved him. I love him. But I cant be with someone here again. Cant, or wont? Sometimes those mean the same thing.
Noly's finding me someone to talk to. And it must be bad because Mark said I should talk to someone. Since when do patients start giving advice? My fault for crying infront of him I guess. I couldn't help it. I couldnt do anything else. And I tried to not cry, tried to be strong. A momentary lapse in all the strength thats in me. :-/ I'm supposed to be the tough one, I'm supposed to be the one that can deal, I'm supposed to be the doctor. Not the patient. I'm supposed to be the one fixing other peoples heads, not having someone fix mine. But I have to. I need to not be like this, I need to be me. I need to be like I was before.
One more thing. Because this entrys just been a bunch of blubbering nonsence anyways. Noly makes a horrible pirate. And I shall execute my revenge on him soon. Show him how evil I can really be. I'm not all innocent and the paperwork doing type of girl :p Yep vin, that was showing you too.
Oh yeah. And people who hurt other people Suck. People who hurt kids suck, people who hurt my patients suck, people who hurt my friends suck. Basically if you hurt someone, you suck. So basically every one sucks atleast a little bit. Even me, cause I know I've hurt people before. Sorry if that persons been you. But yeah. Just had to get all that out. Mean people suck.
Dr. Moore