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This is.. SO not me. It's 9.33am... A time where I'm usually sleeping like a pig.. Yet here I am, posting on my long-abandoned blog.
What is this blog for? I have no idea. It serves no purpose in my life... yet I have no place to turn to except for my humble little shrine created for no one but myself. I can say anything and everything I wan here. Guess I just sucks at expressing myself...
I'm being punished. Yes, I deserve to be punished. There are no one to blame but myself.
I'm not anyone holy. I've grown so much over the past years that I don't understand myself anymore.
Here are some of the descriptions that suits me:
Attention-seeker
Bitch
Self-pity
Slut
Manipulative
Selfish
Greedy
Self-centered
I used to go 'EWWWW' at the sight of anything Sex-related. What is sex now? In my personal dictionary, it's nothing love-related. It's just a game, entertainment, leisure... Going out with other guys just for sex. Hurting people around me in return.
How did I turn into such a person? The porn I have watched can be counted with just my 2 hands and 10 fingers. I feel so low trying to lie my way through life. Now everything's backfired. I do believe in KARMA. RETRIBUTION. Where you get what you deserve.
I deserve the punishment I'm getting. There are no one to blame but myself for your unloyalty. You are the best ever bf I can ever get.
I choose to let go. Of this broken relationship I have single-handedly destroyed.
What is this blog for? I have no idea. It serves no purpose in my life... yet I have no place to turn to except for my humble little shrine created for no one but myself. I can say anything and everything I wan here. Guess I just sucks at expressing myself...
I'm being punished. Yes, I deserve to be punished. There are no one to blame but myself.
I'm not anyone holy. I've grown so much over the past years that I don't understand myself anymore.
Here are some of the descriptions that suits me:
Attention-seeker
Bitch
Self-pity
Slut
Manipulative
Selfish
Greedy
Self-centered
I used to go 'EWWWW' at the sight of anything Sex-related. What is sex now? In my personal dictionary, it's nothing love-related. It's just a game, entertainment, leisure... Going out with other guys just for sex. Hurting people around me in return.
How did I turn into such a person? The porn I have watched can be counted with just my 2 hands and 10 fingers. I feel so low trying to lie my way through life. Now everything's backfired. I do believe in KARMA. RETRIBUTION. Where you get what you deserve.
I deserve the punishment I'm getting. There are no one to blame but myself for your unloyalty. You are the best ever bf I can ever get.
I choose to let go. Of this broken relationship I have single-handedly destroyed.