As the night falls...
Hey all~ Didn't really thought of writing so soon actually... But things seems to be going too fast for me to handle alone so i thought of updating a little...
I was truly hurt yesterday by some little words my friend said to me. When i say little, i mean "little". I didn't know words can hurt this much. It feels like piercing needles into my heart one by one... Mere words couldn't describe the pain that i was feeling. It makes me feel worthless, not needed and completely unecessary... Perhaps it is love, or perhaps lust... I'm not really sure bout it myself. Maybe it's just me that doesn't wanna take the inisiative to find out... But this one, particular one, and only one that can make me feel this way...
What makes things worse is that i fought with my mum again. Yes, again. It's such a sad night as the fight with my mum this time is really really bad. I came out of my house at 10am for tuition and now i'm in cyber cafe trying to get a hang of myself. I'll have tuition to run to, so i'll be ok till around 6pm or so... Wonder what can i do after this... sigh..
I hope everyone will think twice before saying anything rashly, words truly hurts. It hurts more den the world crumbling upon you and worse than your life nearing its end. I might sound as if i'm exaggerating, but it feels like that for me...
God, will you give me a choice to live or die? Will you take away my life to make me happier?
I was truly hurt yesterday by some little words my friend said to me. When i say little, i mean "little". I didn't know words can hurt this much. It feels like piercing needles into my heart one by one... Mere words couldn't describe the pain that i was feeling. It makes me feel worthless, not needed and completely unecessary... Perhaps it is love, or perhaps lust... I'm not really sure bout it myself. Maybe it's just me that doesn't wanna take the inisiative to find out... But this one, particular one, and only one that can make me feel this way...
What makes things worse is that i fought with my mum again. Yes, again. It's such a sad night as the fight with my mum this time is really really bad. I came out of my house at 10am for tuition and now i'm in cyber cafe trying to get a hang of myself. I'll have tuition to run to, so i'll be ok till around 6pm or so... Wonder what can i do after this... sigh..
I hope everyone will think twice before saying anything rashly, words truly hurts. It hurts more den the world crumbling upon you and worse than your life nearing its end. I might sound as if i'm exaggerating, but it feels like that for me...
God, will you give me a choice to live or die? Will you take away my life to make me happier?