With a heavy heart :(
It is with a heavy heart I post this; we had our last visit to the cancer clinic today. There is nothing more they can do for my father. On an intellectual level, my brain knew...seeing how much he has been deteriorating over the last few months. But my heart kept grasping at hope, hope that we could slow it down or make the pain go away, but it is not the case. Hearing him say, he wished he would die already...breaks our hearts. I know he will be in a better place...but it is hard letting go. So now we are waiting for a palliative care bed, he even said to take him to the hospital. Damn this is so hard to write! It's not only hard watching him suffer, but also watching mom. There's not much we can do but be here for each other, I try to hold back the tears to put on a brave face for her, but it's getting more and more difficult to do.
I just can't believe that its come so quickly, so now we wait...for the inevitable :(
I just can't believe that its come so quickly, so now we wait...for the inevitable :(