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I have been getting so behind on my updates! I just don't have much time anymore... I actually got out of Hippo this weekend..I know, you all are extremely proud of me! I was actually proud of myself. I was exhausted though, and still am, but I learned quite a bit about myself this weekend.
I actually went out with a girl whom I used to despise back in grade school. It took me a while to remember WHY we didn't get along. It was stupid really...But anyway, she called me once and cussed me all to pieces on my answering machine once... Well, my mom overheard the message, then called the girl's mother and made her listen to it. It was awful... We absolutely couldn't stand each other from that point on...We put so much energy into not liking one another, we both had actually kinda forgotten why we didnt' get along in the first place. So, I learned that I've really grown up. I was able to look back at the past and laugh about it. Me and that girl (Brittany was her name) actually have a lot in common, and we got along really well. I went w/her and a few of my cousins to that haunted hayride at the campgrounds. Pretty fun! I had forgotten how good it felt to go out and have a good time. Needless to say, I'm sure I will be getting out much more now (that is, once school quits being so damn demanding, and I actually have free time once more)!
And one more thing... At work on Friday I waited on a "customer" through the drive thru... And it wasn't just ANY customer... This girl and I had a bad history as well, and of course, it was all because of some stupid boy. She seems really nice, like I may want to be friends? I dunno... It was strange. I just had a strange feeling at peace within myself, like I wasn't mad anymore. I really wanted to just say "hey, i'm sooo sorry for everything i've put you through and all the mean things i've said and done in the past..." Instead, I said as politely as I could, "Thank you, Amie" and smiled. I really want more than anything to put the past behind me and get on with life. At this point in my life, I realize I don't want any more enemies. That bitch Barb that I work with is enough to keep me satisfied :) It's taken alot for me to realize just how important my friends are... And believe it or not, I'm ready to "forgive and forget" (in my case more like "apologize, beg for forgiveness, and then forget) the people I disliked the most! I don't know what's going on with me anymore. I think I'm becoming too friendly... Any comments?
I felt horrible this weekend for bailing on Kev... I didn't really plan on going out, it just sort of happened. I had no intentions at all of going anywhere. I was so tired from the weekend. I was running back and forth to the hospital every free chance I got, and I even had to work on Saturday. Along with homework and lots of benadryll to relieve my itchin', I was ready to crash, and had no energy. I made myself get out. I really wish I'd spent some time with friends... Maybe even some time making new ones :) I really hope that milkshake helped smooth things over with Kevin. I know he whines and bitches quite often, but this time he had a reason. I wish it hadn't have happened that way.
On to better things... Tonight was Halloween. *YAY!* I think we had 7 or 8 trick-or-treaters total... But they all LOVED Lucy's costume... she looked so darn cute! That's my baby! She was Cinderella...lol, I had her a little tiara made but the rubber band that held it on her head kept breaking...I didn't wanna hurt my baby, so I didn't make her wear it. The dress was pretty enough. See for yourself...
Everybody LOVES Lucy! ;-)
My brother, my cousin Natalie, and I all three went next door to TP my cousin's house and car. I know--it was lame. But the only reason I did it was because she threatened me. She thinks she's gonna sneak up to my house in the middle of the night and do something to my car... Boy will she be suprised when my alarm starts blaring when she touches my car! LoL... I can't wait! She may think she's clever, but I'm much more cleverer...lol Is that even a word, cleverer? You get the point. I'm much smarter. There, that's better.
Well, it's getting late, and the benadryll is kicking in.. I think I'm getting addicted, but it's the only way I can get to sleep without itching all night! I go back to the doc on Wednesday though... Maybe they can figure me out. One can only hope...
Nighty night :)
Mandy
I actually went out with a girl whom I used to despise back in grade school. It took me a while to remember WHY we didn't get along. It was stupid really...But anyway, she called me once and cussed me all to pieces on my answering machine once... Well, my mom overheard the message, then called the girl's mother and made her listen to it. It was awful... We absolutely couldn't stand each other from that point on...We put so much energy into not liking one another, we both had actually kinda forgotten why we didnt' get along in the first place. So, I learned that I've really grown up. I was able to look back at the past and laugh about it. Me and that girl (Brittany was her name) actually have a lot in common, and we got along really well. I went w/her and a few of my cousins to that haunted hayride at the campgrounds. Pretty fun! I had forgotten how good it felt to go out and have a good time. Needless to say, I'm sure I will be getting out much more now (that is, once school quits being so damn demanding, and I actually have free time once more)!
And one more thing... At work on Friday I waited on a "customer" through the drive thru... And it wasn't just ANY customer... This girl and I had a bad history as well, and of course, it was all because of some stupid boy. She seems really nice, like I may want to be friends? I dunno... It was strange. I just had a strange feeling at peace within myself, like I wasn't mad anymore. I really wanted to just say "hey, i'm sooo sorry for everything i've put you through and all the mean things i've said and done in the past..." Instead, I said as politely as I could, "Thank you, Amie" and smiled. I really want more than anything to put the past behind me and get on with life. At this point in my life, I realize I don't want any more enemies. That bitch Barb that I work with is enough to keep me satisfied :) It's taken alot for me to realize just how important my friends are... And believe it or not, I'm ready to "forgive and forget" (in my case more like "apologize, beg for forgiveness, and then forget) the people I disliked the most! I don't know what's going on with me anymore. I think I'm becoming too friendly... Any comments?
I felt horrible this weekend for bailing on Kev... I didn't really plan on going out, it just sort of happened. I had no intentions at all of going anywhere. I was so tired from the weekend. I was running back and forth to the hospital every free chance I got, and I even had to work on Saturday. Along with homework and lots of benadryll to relieve my itchin', I was ready to crash, and had no energy. I made myself get out. I really wish I'd spent some time with friends... Maybe even some time making new ones :) I really hope that milkshake helped smooth things over with Kevin. I know he whines and bitches quite often, but this time he had a reason. I wish it hadn't have happened that way.
On to better things... Tonight was Halloween. *YAY!* I think we had 7 or 8 trick-or-treaters total... But they all LOVED Lucy's costume... she looked so darn cute! That's my baby! She was Cinderella...lol, I had her a little tiara made but the rubber band that held it on her head kept breaking...I didn't wanna hurt my baby, so I didn't make her wear it. The dress was pretty enough. See for yourself...
Everybody LOVES Lucy! ;-)
My brother, my cousin Natalie, and I all three went next door to TP my cousin's house and car. I know--it was lame. But the only reason I did it was because she threatened me. She thinks she's gonna sneak up to my house in the middle of the night and do something to my car... Boy will she be suprised when my alarm starts blaring when she touches my car! LoL... I can't wait! She may think she's clever, but I'm much more cleverer...lol Is that even a word, cleverer? You get the point. I'm much smarter. There, that's better.
Well, it's getting late, and the benadryll is kicking in.. I think I'm getting addicted, but it's the only way I can get to sleep without itching all night! I go back to the doc on Wednesday though... Maybe they can figure me out. One can only hope...
Nighty night :)
Mandy