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Everything I've ever wanted to say to you-
When I was little, you were the person I'd always talk about. Everyone was jealous because I had the best dad ever. He was the one who did everything for me, and even more. You were the one who told me I could be anything I want to be, and you would help me get there. You said you would always be there for me, even If you did live in Texas. You told me whenever I get sad I can just look at the moon, and you'll be looking too. But, now I don't even want to look. Because I know you won't be there. You haven't been here in 9years. What did you have to do that was better than your kids? What? Drinking? Did that really get you places? No, your stuck in rehab now. But, for those 8years you weren't, why didn't you try and make an effort and see me? Am I honestly only good enough for one phone call? And those phone calls I got, you were drunk. What did we do to you for us not to have a dad? You missed everything in my life. EVERYTHING. I bet if I seen you on the street you wouldn't even recognize me. You made me promises, each time you called. You told me you would come see me, somehow. You never did. I'm sick of hearing all your bullshit lies! I don't tell you this because you have so much going on in your life and I'm scared this will just add to the mess you made. But, why should I feel the need to protect you. You need to know! You need to know that I don't even consider you my dad anymore! You're nobody. BE A FUCKING MAN, AND SEE YOUR FUCKING KIDS! I shouldn't be worrying about you, you should be worrying about me. I don't even care if that sounds selfish. Your my parent, you should be there when I need you. I need help, and your not even here to help. Do you know that I sit here day and day wondering if your still alive? Wondering if something happened to you? I shouldn't have to think about shit like this. Somebody asked me why do you think your dad owes you something? YOU OWE ME EVERYTHING! Everything! I will make sure my kids never grow up without a dad, because it's something I never want them to go through. You're pathetic. I hope you prove me wrong, but I'm betting you don't.
I'm trying everything in my power, not to turn out like you. I don't want to fail at life, I want to be successful. But, I'm slowly realizing I'm just like you.
When I was little, you were the person I'd always talk about. Everyone was jealous because I had the best dad ever. He was the one who did everything for me, and even more. You were the one who told me I could be anything I want to be, and you would help me get there. You said you would always be there for me, even If you did live in Texas. You told me whenever I get sad I can just look at the moon, and you'll be looking too. But, now I don't even want to look. Because I know you won't be there. You haven't been here in 9years. What did you have to do that was better than your kids? What? Drinking? Did that really get you places? No, your stuck in rehab now. But, for those 8years you weren't, why didn't you try and make an effort and see me? Am I honestly only good enough for one phone call? And those phone calls I got, you were drunk. What did we do to you for us not to have a dad? You missed everything in my life. EVERYTHING. I bet if I seen you on the street you wouldn't even recognize me. You made me promises, each time you called. You told me you would come see me, somehow. You never did. I'm sick of hearing all your bullshit lies! I don't tell you this because you have so much going on in your life and I'm scared this will just add to the mess you made. But, why should I feel the need to protect you. You need to know! You need to know that I don't even consider you my dad anymore! You're nobody. BE A FUCKING MAN, AND SEE YOUR FUCKING KIDS! I shouldn't be worrying about you, you should be worrying about me. I don't even care if that sounds selfish. Your my parent, you should be there when I need you. I need help, and your not even here to help. Do you know that I sit here day and day wondering if your still alive? Wondering if something happened to you? I shouldn't have to think about shit like this. Somebody asked me why do you think your dad owes you something? YOU OWE ME EVERYTHING! Everything! I will make sure my kids never grow up without a dad, because it's something I never want them to go through. You're pathetic. I hope you prove me wrong, but I'm betting you don't.
I'm trying everything in my power, not to turn out like you. I don't want to fail at life, I want to be successful. But, I'm slowly realizing I'm just like you.