My Life

[manduh_jay]

wow am i ever in a weird mood i dunno really how i feel right now i'm just blaaaahhh. Man do people over piss me off.. life can just fucking suck sometimes. i like the way things are but at the same time i want them to change sometimes i wish things were the same they use to be i could just be me and not worry about things i never use to. i miss my mom and my old life, not to say i dont like how it is now i miss the old days when my only worry was when i was grounded i dont get grounded anymore which is awesome but at the same time i have no rules and as much as people would say i'm wierd its true i have no rules at all i can do what i want when i want with no one to say anything. My new life left so many things out. most f my friends are soo far how the hell do i get to see them.. oh wait i dont. Josh is awesome i really i do love him more than anything and so is his family they treat me awesome and i am really comfortable with them which is a real plus i'm use to it now and it seems so weird i would hate leaving here more than i did my moms cuz at the time i was soo mad at my mom but now it is all over and done with i miss her like you have no idea she was my mom and dad and she loves me soo much and i love her soo much i feel like i am the same person but at the same time no. i'm stronger now i dont let people walk all ov me and i'm happy and all but then i get into these moods and they are so unexplainable but really i dont wanna talk about this anymore. so i'll leave it at that.

Manduh Jay
xoxox