long time coming
How is it possible for this year to be this much better than last? I knew that things could have been better before but wow. If it's true that music boosts your ego/self-confidence, I must be incredibly egotistical lately. I have been listening to music all the time and it's wonderful. People are great. The weather is nice. Classes are running smoothly for the moment.
And I have a crush. I'm so excited! I have not had a crush that lasted more than a day in over two years. This is so amazing and fun and I'm totally loving it. The butterflies and sideways glances and uncertainty are all there and it's great. Not always a party but never boring. I feel like I've forgotten how to do this though.
I just cannot get over how amazing this year is. I fit. I never really realized how upbeat I can be. It just occurred to me recently how very positive and even-tempered I am. During high school and even last year I always focused on what was bringing me down. The only things I remembered were the dips in my mood. Everything was exaggerated but there isn't any drama here. I've actually found myself steering clear of any sort of drama/gossip/scandal. I just don't need to be around that. The people I need to be with are funny and happy and mellow.
Anyway, I'm dying. I have been staying up far too late socializing with said crush this week. I have not been to bed before 2 all week and it's starting to hit me. I have to get up around 8:15 tomorrow to get ready for class and I would really like to not have to caffeinate myself.
Hmmm....crush is going to a debate tournament tomorrow afternoon...lunchdate perhaps?
Oh how exciting!
And I have a crush. I'm so excited! I have not had a crush that lasted more than a day in over two years. This is so amazing and fun and I'm totally loving it. The butterflies and sideways glances and uncertainty are all there and it's great. Not always a party but never boring. I feel like I've forgotten how to do this though.
I just cannot get over how amazing this year is. I fit. I never really realized how upbeat I can be. It just occurred to me recently how very positive and even-tempered I am. During high school and even last year I always focused on what was bringing me down. The only things I remembered were the dips in my mood. Everything was exaggerated but there isn't any drama here. I've actually found myself steering clear of any sort of drama/gossip/scandal. I just don't need to be around that. The people I need to be with are funny and happy and mellow.
Anyway, I'm dying. I have been staying up far too late socializing with said crush this week. I have not been to bed before 2 all week and it's starting to hit me. I have to get up around 8:15 tomorrow to get ready for class and I would really like to not have to caffeinate myself.
Hmmm....crush is going to a debate tournament tomorrow afternoon...lunchdate perhaps?
Oh how exciting!