*hold on if you feel like letting go*

Jun 29, 2006 16:58

so, i'm rather upset..at nothing but life..

it's like...for the past two days i've been nothing but depressed..and even though i've been around friends (laura crutchfield spent the night last night and we hung out all day today..and that was a lot of fun), i've been upset at everything. i really don't know what it is. true, i'm afraid something happened with garrett..i certainly hope not, but maybe..who knows..

the story goes: i had DIP last night, so he hung out with courtney and mary quinn..and one of their girl neighbors..which is fine, bc i trust him and all...but they went to a movie while i was at DIP..and he told me to call him when i got out (9:15ish)...so i called him and told him we could hang out (barbara said i could go out with him, crutchfield, and some others)..so, when i called him, he was in the movie..and i didn't know..and he got all pissy acting..i felt bad....but then i sent him a text when me and her got home..at like 11 and he sent one back saying "i'll call around 12ish" and he never called...so i was naturally disappointed(sp?)..and he texted at like, 1 a.m saying he couldn't call...well, duh! and it was like he didn't want to call..so, i've been upset at all that for the past day..i mean, yeah i enjoyed staying in my pool all day with laura..and i've hadda good time...but not once did my phone ring..he hasn't called or w/e at all..so, i'm really more than a little upset..here it is 5 pm..and i should have a plan for the evening with garrett, and i don't..so..am i stressing out over nothing? or is this a true thing i should get freaked out over?....it never occurred to me that he likes someone else..its nothing like that..there's no threat of cheating or w/e..i'm simply upset that he hasn't tried to get in touch with me at all..like, if he really wanted to be around me tonight..he would attempt to get in touch..

i'm seriously hoping that all of this is PMS stuff..i mean, if i really were going thru depression again..idk what i'd do..it sucks..

on a lighter note..the night was a lot of fun..and chad and mikey have called me an awful lot..so its good i've started hanging out with them again..and more fun...i borrowed my nephew andrew's DDR...hahahaha..i'm on cloud 9 with that game..i love it =)...

so, i'll keep it updated with the boy drama..(that i hope i'm not having..maybe he just had a really busy day at work?) and all that..cuz seriously..i have liked hanging out with garrett since the very first night...and i like being able to have a good time around him and not care what he thinks..yes, i like him a lot..so, i hope this all blows over..but ehhh

<3 Em (off to shower in hopes that something will be goin on tonight..whether it be with garrett or myself and DDR haha =P)
Previous post Next post
Up