Getting it all out so I can be strong and let go.
I woke up this morning feeling so bad about my life. I feel so disconected from those I love. I fear I only stand to lose more. I'm afraid of losing everyone I care about. The only people I'm NOT afraid of losing or worried about my status with are mt guys in Japan (yes you). I'm really secure there. *sigh* I think its a good idea to talk about some anti-depresants with my therapist today. I have that feeling in my chest today and those are the bad days. It would be nice to have something to help me along on those chest hurting days. Its my birthday soon and I feel like a failure. it's not true but I cant get that thought out of my mind. I just need to get out of this room and go do something. *smiles softly* cause me and mamiko are gonna go work out soon. I feel better now. Today I will still do my best.