If you don't learn from history...
So. I may or may not be hanging out with Colin again. You should probably pick 'may'. And, we talked about intentions, and how we wanted to take things really slow and see whats changed since last time and how we've grown up... which sounds great, right?
Except, ya know. It's Colin. You know that I won't actually be capable of taking things slow, physically or emotionally. Even if he can, I realize that in my own head I'm already making plans and setting up expectations that I know are unreasonable at this stage.
I'll never get this right. But at least if I can act casual, can keep the crazy to a minimum, then things might work out, right?
Ugh. It's the family thing, the fact that if we were together it would be Colin, me, and baby makes three. I can't resist the dream.
I haven't gone to class hardly at all in the past week. I don't even really feel bad about it, I'm already accepting the fact that I'm just not going to do well this semester.
Thats all for tonight.
Except, ya know. It's Colin. You know that I won't actually be capable of taking things slow, physically or emotionally. Even if he can, I realize that in my own head I'm already making plans and setting up expectations that I know are unreasonable at this stage.
I'll never get this right. But at least if I can act casual, can keep the crazy to a minimum, then things might work out, right?
Ugh. It's the family thing, the fact that if we were together it would be Colin, me, and baby makes three. I can't resist the dream.
I haven't gone to class hardly at all in the past week. I don't even really feel bad about it, I'm already accepting the fact that I'm just not going to do well this semester.
Thats all for tonight.