thinking
i think way to much for my own good, i think about everything until i find a solution to it , and i dont stop until i am finished. i hate it, i get myself to the point where i have to take sleeping pills to go to sleep. i guess i just love him so much and if we keep doing this i want to eventually get back with him. i dont want to end it with me getting hurt. i hete being hurt because yet again i will think about it until i die or someting. becasue i know that i dont want to move on, i dont want anyoneelse i hate all guys except randy and it should be the total opposite. but i have had like 9 chances to get with other guys but i caint, ive been asked for my number plenty of times, and i always turn it down, i caint do it. ive never been this attaved to a person ever. but i guess i just have to take that chance if i want to keep doing this, but i will eventually come into place one day and then i will eventually move on to something else even if it is like 2 years or something when i finally feel ok. goodnight