I am ashamed
I do not want my life to end up like this...u would expect for my life to go in this same path since this was the way i was raised. I feel like i live in my own world at times and no one knows me. I dont want to end up in this same pit of misery that others i love are in. Yes i love them...I would do anything for them. But I wonder why they make the choices they make. Why try covering small things up that you did wrong and make it a bigger problem in the long run...Its just not worth it. Sometimes I wish I could run away and start over alone. I hate to be ashamed of people I love but sometimes I just want to hide. It seems so selfish I know. Why do I worry so much of what people think of me...after all its not my fault things have ended up this way.I have to just accept the fact and know that I dont want this by ANY means. It just saddens me. I had to get this off my chest. ...