Teenage angst seems pitiful, now I'm bored and old
So we're done cleaning and Mike is here, finally. Im waiting for lunch to get here and waiting for the shower. I let Jason go first, huge mistake, but his feetsies were dirty. A quick shower for jason is 1 hour, and he didnt even say hed be quick. So here I sit and wait. Im listening to my Nirvana In Utero CD. I finally found it under the computer desk, so I guess the cleaning did pay off. This is my favorite CD of all time. Nothing beats it, its just the best. I could listen to it everyday, all day, and not get tired of it. God, if youre reading my journal, I want to spend eternity listening to this CD, so make sure its in heavens CD player. I just want to quote my friend regina from last night, because this quote should go down in history books. "You should have fun every moment of every day, so much fun that you smack your own ass" Beautiful. LOL amber, I heard the conversations got great after I left, jay and tom told me about it this morning. I was driving home from crawdads last night and Small Town from pearl jam came on. That song reminds me of Marc, not because he loves pearl jam, but it just kind of reminds me of how our friendship went away. "I just want to scream hello, oh my god its been so long, never dreamed youd return. But now here you are, and here I am, Hearts and thoughts they fade away." Seeing him on wednesday was sad. i miss him, his friendship. He was one person in my life that I could really relate to, and say anything to. but hes changed, ive changed, and hes not someone I want to be around anymore. I thought I knew him very well, but I realized that I may have not, or I did and he just took a path that I didnt want to take. Although hed never admit it, he is a very self-conscious person, and very influenced by others. Anyways, I mourn the friendship that we lost, but dont mourn the fact that we arent friens anymore, if that makes sense. I dont want him around anymore, but I loved it"back in the day" when he was around and everything was different. Anyways, that got weird, I'll shut up now. Plus the showers open :)