Venting
It sucks, knowing youve been replaced. And by someone uglier and the only thing they can offer them is sex.
So, I was just on Amandas myspace. Its funny how she only calls on holidays, you know when shes already calling her family. She called on Fathers Day and we talked for like 10 minutes. I was a little distracted cuz I was talking to Mike and Ashley online too. And they are actually there for me so I didnt competly stop talking to them. I told Ashley you'll never guess who Im on the phone with and she almost had a heartattack and then I told her when we got off the phone and she was like already??
But anyways on her myspace her sis in law posted pics of them and of Amanda and Brandon. She looks great, and grown up. I miss her and yet am so mad at her at the same time. I know its been 8 months since shes been married and you think I wouldve gotten over it, but when I think down and really think about it I just dont get how she can not be here for me. Im not upset by the fact that she got married, but how shes changed. We used to talk everyday or 3 times a week. Now its once every few months.
When I think back to when I started failing my fall semester Ive always blamed it on my dad coming home and me going on vacation to Disney. I think back to how I shouldnt have gone, or I at least shouldve caught up. But when I thought about it today I come up with another reason. I had no best friend, no one for me to really lean on. Amanda doing that really hurt and a time I was so looking forward to, her coming to visit, just sucked. I was hanging with Brit and all them, but it just wasnt the same. Then Berlin happened and I hit rock bottom. Moving into the dorms couldve been the best thing to happen. I met Ashley, Jason, hung out with Mike and Craig more.
I just wish that oneday Amanda and I will become closer again and shell realize what she did and how she pushed not only me away, but also her family. She talks to Brandons family more than her own. I dont think I was really going anywhere with this, just venting. I guess thats what this is for.
So, I was just on Amandas myspace. Its funny how she only calls on holidays, you know when shes already calling her family. She called on Fathers Day and we talked for like 10 minutes. I was a little distracted cuz I was talking to Mike and Ashley online too. And they are actually there for me so I didnt competly stop talking to them. I told Ashley you'll never guess who Im on the phone with and she almost had a heartattack and then I told her when we got off the phone and she was like already??
But anyways on her myspace her sis in law posted pics of them and of Amanda and Brandon. She looks great, and grown up. I miss her and yet am so mad at her at the same time. I know its been 8 months since shes been married and you think I wouldve gotten over it, but when I think down and really think about it I just dont get how she can not be here for me. Im not upset by the fact that she got married, but how shes changed. We used to talk everyday or 3 times a week. Now its once every few months.
When I think back to when I started failing my fall semester Ive always blamed it on my dad coming home and me going on vacation to Disney. I think back to how I shouldnt have gone, or I at least shouldve caught up. But when I thought about it today I come up with another reason. I had no best friend, no one for me to really lean on. Amanda doing that really hurt and a time I was so looking forward to, her coming to visit, just sucked. I was hanging with Brit and all them, but it just wasnt the same. Then Berlin happened and I hit rock bottom. Moving into the dorms couldve been the best thing to happen. I met Ashley, Jason, hung out with Mike and Craig more.
I just wish that oneday Amanda and I will become closer again and shell realize what she did and how she pushed not only me away, but also her family. She talks to Brandons family more than her own. I dont think I was really going anywhere with this, just venting. I guess thats what this is for.