why am i here
i have a problem
im selfish
and a coward
i hate making first moves
i hate calling people
i hate making an effort because what may seem like something ridiculously simple to someone else is enough to make me nervous to the point of nausea.
im sick of trying to have a social life. balls in everyone elses court. im dropping off the radar for a while. its not like it'll be any different from the life i lead in tennessee.
i GET that i have a filthy smoking habit
I FUCKING GET IT
ALRIGHT
SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LET ME KILL MYSELF IN PEACE ALREADY
I KNOW WHAT IT DOES
IM WELL AWARE
I'M NOT BLIND, THE FUCKING SURGEON GENERAL LEAVES SOME PRETTY BOLD MESSAGES ON THE SIDE OF EVERY FUCKING PACK I HAVE IN MY PURSE RIGHT NOW
do you understand?
i get it.
and im sick of talking about it.
longs drugs called me for an interview, and then turned me away.
im pretty fucking upset about that because our own LIZ BRENNAN has told me i'm useless twice since ive been here. "I worked all day, what did you do? NOTHING."
yeah, that Liz you all know and love.
im scared my boyfriend will get bored with me because i hardly talk to him once a day these days. i'm just not on the internet at all anymore. i try to call once a day, but i'm not made of cell phone minutes.
i'm scared. i'm really fucking scared.
i'm not exactly the worlds greatest girlfriend lmfao.
back to the smoking thing
I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW HOW ABSOLUTELY FUCKING SICK OF IT I AM
i'm willing to sacrifice friendships for some peace of fucking mind
not for cigarettes, not for my addiction, not for any of that.
for peace. i know its a bad, filthy, gross disgusting habit. I KNOW YOU THINK IT SMELLS AND IS FOUL AND YOU WISH I WOULDNT I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I FUCKING KNOW ALRIGHT?
fyi.
just leave me alone.
im selfish
and a coward
i hate making first moves
i hate calling people
i hate making an effort because what may seem like something ridiculously simple to someone else is enough to make me nervous to the point of nausea.
im sick of trying to have a social life. balls in everyone elses court. im dropping off the radar for a while. its not like it'll be any different from the life i lead in tennessee.
i GET that i have a filthy smoking habit
I FUCKING GET IT
ALRIGHT
SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LET ME KILL MYSELF IN PEACE ALREADY
I KNOW WHAT IT DOES
IM WELL AWARE
I'M NOT BLIND, THE FUCKING SURGEON GENERAL LEAVES SOME PRETTY BOLD MESSAGES ON THE SIDE OF EVERY FUCKING PACK I HAVE IN MY PURSE RIGHT NOW
do you understand?
i get it.
and im sick of talking about it.
longs drugs called me for an interview, and then turned me away.
im pretty fucking upset about that because our own LIZ BRENNAN has told me i'm useless twice since ive been here. "I worked all day, what did you do? NOTHING."
yeah, that Liz you all know and love.
im scared my boyfriend will get bored with me because i hardly talk to him once a day these days. i'm just not on the internet at all anymore. i try to call once a day, but i'm not made of cell phone minutes.
i'm scared. i'm really fucking scared.
i'm not exactly the worlds greatest girlfriend lmfao.
back to the smoking thing
I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW HOW ABSOLUTELY FUCKING SICK OF IT I AM
i'm willing to sacrifice friendships for some peace of fucking mind
not for cigarettes, not for my addiction, not for any of that.
for peace. i know its a bad, filthy, gross disgusting habit. I KNOW YOU THINK IT SMELLS AND IS FOUL AND YOU WISH I WOULDNT I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I FUCKING KNOW ALRIGHT?
fyi.
just leave me alone.